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Kit didn't know if he wanted to keep acting by the end of GoT

2020.09.20 08:53 Winniepg Kit didn't know if he wanted to keep acting by the end of GoT

So the interview is fairly extensive and focused on what he is doing now while also reflecting about GoT. Seems like the break has been really good for him and his time away from the show was needed. It would have been a shame if he stopped acting.
Kit Harington: 'I feel that emotionally men have a problem - and it stems from the Second World War'
Game of Thrones' Jon Snow opens up to Gavanndra Hodge
There was a time, not so long ago, when Kit Harington, the brooding, battle-weary hero of the global television phenomenon Game of Thrones, considered giving up acting. He had spent eight gruelling seasons and nearly all his 20s playing Jon Snow, who, in the final episode of the show, has to kill Daenerys Targaryen, the woman he loves, because she has become an unhinged tyrant who thinks it's OK to incinerate thousands of innocents with her massive dragons.
Harington wept at this scene during one of the cast read-throughs. "I cried a lot in the last season, just out of sheer fatigue," he says. "But I was feeling pretty emotional that day. I think it was more to do with Emilia [Clarke, the actor who played Daenerys], more about the people around me and the story coming to an end."
We are speaking in a photographic studio in Hoxton, the roast chicken that Harington's assistant has fetched for his lunch cooling on the coffee table between us ("I can't eat and talk"). He looks box-fresh, just like the black T-shirt, grey jeans rolled up to mid-calf and grey plimsolls he's wearing; his shaggy beard is trimmed, his shoulder-length warrior ringlets shorn away.
It's a little strange to meet someone and be surprised that they look like they've recently showered, but we're more used to seeing Harington smeared with the roiling mud and blood of Westeros, so this general vibe of buffed well-being feels new, as does the laid-back grace with which he approaches being interviewed (in past encounters he has seemed rather tense and reserved - channelling Jon Snow a little too hard, perhaps).
It turns out that Harington, 33, has had a good lockdown. He and his wife, the actor Rose Leslie, who, as the wildling Ygritte, claimed Harington's on-screen virginity in a thermal spring in season three of Game of Thrones, decamped from their north London home to their 15th-century house in Suffolk in March.
"I did not set myself the task of writing the next big novel or learning an instrument, and failing," he says. "I gave myself a break from the get-go. I took the opportunity to reflect, to sit with myself, and for the most part that was what I achieved."
There was lots of gardening, he says, reading and exercise. Sometimes he and Leslie would get dressed up in their fancy red-carpet gear for dinner, just to add variety to existence, and she was the one who cut his hair.
They even found themselves performing impromptu comedy skits for each other. "We would be walking around the house playing scenes and doing accents. Two actors locked up together will end up performing for no one."
He wasn't able to act during lockdown, but he was able to process the 'intensity' of the past few years, during which seasons of Game of Thrones were interspersed with parts in films such as Pompeii, Spooks and Testament of Youth, and theatre roles including Doctor Faustus, his fame ratcheting ever upwards from drama school newbie to global six-pack pin-up.
"It has been interesting - going through lockdown, getting over this TV show, where by the end of it I didn't know if I wanted to be an actor any more, coming out the other side, living with another actor. I realised that I actually miss my craft, I miss what I do. It's a nice revelation."
Harington was brought up in Acton in west London until he was 11, when his family moved to Worcestershire. His father, David, was a businessman; and his mother, Deborah, was a playwright, a teacher of creative writing and now an artist.
"I idolised my mum," he says. "I followed her around the house. It was because of her that I wanted to be an actor. She used to take us to the theatre at least twice a week." But Deborah Harington didn't only teach her sons (Harington has an older brother, Jack, who lives in Dubai) about the transformative magic of the stage; she also introduced them to gender politics.
"I asked for a Mighty Max and she bought me a Polly Pocket. I asked for an Action Man and I got a doll - it was very gender fluid from the word go. And I went with it," says Harington. To this day masculinity and 'inherited male trauma' are the themes that he is most interested in exploring with his work.
"I feel that emotionally men have a problem, a blockage, and that blockage has come from the Second World War, passed down from grandfather to father to son. We do not speak about how we feel because it shows weakness, because it is not masculine. Having portrayed a man who was silent, who was heroic, I feel going forward that is a role I don't want to play any more. It is not a masculine role that the world needs to see much more of."
He is, of course, talking about Jon Snow, the role he won soon after graduating from the Central School of Speech and Drama, where he was mostly cast as 'a pre-pubescent boy' and had to grow a beard before audiences would accept him as a man. Snow fitted the Jungian archetype of the hero - loyal, steadfast and honest, a man who fights for the underdog - and as such he became the moral core of a show where for the most part immorality reigned.
Harington admits that he is "not all those things", despite what fans may imagine, but he did bring something of himself to the part, "a certain self-reflective, introverted broodiness".
'Thrones', as Harington calls it, was a vast ensemble piece, and despite the unsettling regularity with which well-loved members of the cast were bloodily culled, deep bonds were formed. "The first season was wonderful, the freedom of it, everyone just had a great old time, because no one knew what the hell we were doing. In the second season we suddenly knew that whatever we were doing worked, we knew that we were on to something good."
But it was the third season, he has said, that was his favourite, filming in Iceland and working closely with Leslie. "She has this energy on camera, she really gives everything of herself," he says. "I mean, look, I fancied the hell out of her and I was falling in love with her, so she could have been the worst actor in the world and I wouldn't have seen it... But obviously she is a brilliant actor and very easy to work with."
He describes the end of Thrones as a kind of grief, or like the end of a relationship. "You know that elated feeling you get when you are walking down the street and you realise that you haven't thought about your ex-girlfriend in a while, and you go, I think I am getting over them. I am at that place now and I am really happy."
He does not even have any Thrones memorabilia at his home in Suffolk, no filched bearskin rugs or pewter goblets. "F-k no, I don't want to look round my home and see Thrones. The place is medieval enough." He does have some paintings that fit with the thatch and the timbers, but these are real relatives rather than fictional ones.
"I've got a portrait of a Lady Harington from 1603," he says. There are distinguished relatives on both branches of the family tree, Elizabethan nobles on his father's side, and the Catesbys on his mother's. Harington played his ancestor Robert Catesby, the recusant Catholic ringleader of the Gunpowder Plot in the 2017 BBC miniseries Gunpowder, created by his own production company.
"I don't place a huge amount of importance on family lineage, but it is quite cool to look back and discover stories about these people." He is disappointed that lockdown meant he was unable to make a planned episode of My Grandparents' War, the Channel 4 documentary series in which celebrities learn more about their relatives' wartime heroics, although it is hoped that this will be picked up again.
Projects that Harington did manage to complete include guest-starring in an episode of the David Tennant-led police drama Criminal for Netflix, and playing a character called Dane Whitman in the new Marvel film, The Eternals.
According to my investigations, Whitman is a descendant of an Arthurian knight called Sir Percy of Scandia. He rides a horse called Aragorn and wields a blade called Black Ebony. Sadly Harington can neither confirm nor deny any of this intel. He can't even tell me if he gets to wear a cool superhero outfit. "I've lost count of how many NDAs I've had to sign," he says.
He can tell me about his other cool outfits, though, many of which are by his favoured label, Saint Laurent: "I love the clothes they make. They are a natural fit for me, not loud in any way, very classic, fitted and sleek."
Sleekness is maintained by a regime of running, yoga and workouts. "I need to keep fit, I've got an overactive brain, I need to do something in the morning to get the endorphins going." He has tried meditating, but says he is not very good at it. "I am not a very relaxed person, in honesty, I am a bit ADD, I can't sit still anywhere for very long. I move from place to place. My relaxation is movement."
Another way he clears his brain is by writing poetry: "Bad poetry - it's more like getting things out of my head." These strategies are working, though, and he says that he feels "a lot more centred now, and that is a really satisfying feeling... it has taken years of work, but we all do that, it is a process of growing."
The work continues. He says he recently returned from a week in Wales: "I went to this cabin on my own, just to get out, to be in a different place. I had no signal or Wi-Fi or anything, it was just me and the sheep." While he was there, he read The Dispossessed, the science fiction masterpiece by one of his favourite authors Ursula Le Guin. "There is a brilliant passage about suffering, near the beginning: I have a photo of it on my phone."
Harington spent much of the final season of Game of Thrones in tears, but he seems to be in a far better place now. I ask him when he last cried. "I cried last night. I was chatting to a friend and we were talking about the idea of things not staying still, of not being able to stop time. You know, when you are like, 'This moment is perfect, why are we still moving on?'"
https://www.telegraph.co.uk/luxury/mens-style/kit-harington-feel-emotionally-men-have-problem-stems-second/
Edit: Here are the pictures from the article because we all deserve to see the pretty as well https://twitter.com/BestofKitH/status/1307568852977369088
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2020.09.19 21:23 ArtWheels How to deal with my sad and below poverty mom

I feel emotionally drained right now. Even though I was told by others "it's your parent's problem, not yours. Only they can resolve it. They're adults."
Here's the thing. I have to live with my mom and my older my brother who's on limited disability income. I did live on my own for 2 years but the rent is just too much for places I needed to live. Also having bad roommates to the point of unfair eviction lead me back here. I only work part time in the deli. Which is the only job I got for now, unfortunately, thanks to the city I live in that depends on oil production. Also with my resume of only worked in Foods or Hospitality. It would be a lot easier if I have full-time.
I'm studying online to become a bookkeeper and become an intern to change that. However, I'm stressed out dealing with my mom. She is in abusive cleaning company that don't give a s*** for anyone but their mansion and trying to be the "nouveau riche". She overworks nights 10+ hours. No overtime pay. She works there over 7 years now. She believes no one wants to hire a old fat woman but a young and pretty looking girls to hire ANYWHERE. She has no confidence in herself. She doesn't want me to move to Europe (which I'm currently saving for as I save for emergency). She can't imagine her life on her own since the divorce that affected her horribly. She believes she would be homeless without me, and my brother since she was a full time mom. She doesn't even want me to leave if I get hired in another city. We did live with my grandparents house in my high school years to help her get back on her feet while paying off her debt. She did pay it off eventually but she never got hired anywhere else. She earns from one grand to two grand a month. Which is way more than me, but it's not enough for her life insurance, car insurance, and new debt but credit card for the moving and car repairs. She pays the least rent.
One positive change was she finally took the courage to take Medical Transcriptionist course and will do the job part time as she retires. That made me feel so happy that she has a plan. However, she talks and vents about quiting to do skip the dishes. Temper tantrums over small little things that went wrong. How she hates god for everything that happened to her since the divorce. I gave her advice to apply for the place I'm currently hired but she says "she's too tired. I'll do it later." or "I will." She pretty much never does (from what I noticed when I'm there). I seen her vegetating her mind with watching YouTube or Netflix (I have to admit I do that as well; still trying to break that habit). Or uses her excuse that she needs to study for the exam. I know once she quits, my brother and I will have to pull our income out for rent and her insurance. I don't know how Skip will go but I don't think she will make as much. She needs a better job in the meantime before getting her certificate. I wish she would see financial advisor to help her save money, but she refused.
By the universe, I'm losing it. I want her to be okay before I leave. And I noticed she is starting to use that on me when I told her my plan. I find that unfair of her to pull me down like that. I love her but holy, I am trying to become financially independent, this baggage is just... I feel ENVIOUS of other people that has parents that had their shit together! I feel envious of her that my grandparents are independent to this day that she doesn't have to deal with what I'm dealing with right now.

How do you deal with this if you have a parent like this while you're struggling? I really want advice, truth hurts advice, find someone that also has similar experience. Majority of the time it's advice (above) that never experienced this in their life. And I hope they never will.
Thank you for reading my long rant.
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2020.09.19 15:21 NightDweller 29 [M4F/T] London, Ontario/Anywhere LF a gaming friend and possible relationship

Hi, quite sick of spending my time alone, would really like to find someone to spend time with on a daily basis. Preferably in voice chat while we play games. I'm currently looking for a Spelunky, Magicka, Risk of Rain, Stardew Valley, Terraria, Don't Starve Together buddy. I also wouldn't be oppose to buying Vegante, Fall Guys, and Risk of Rain 2 if we enjoy each other's company quite a bit.
Personality wise I'm looking for someone who is nice, easy going, and caring. Who doesn't take things and life too seriously. Who is more prone to be the decision maker in a relationship. Who is active and willing to let me tag along in swimming and working out. I'm thinking of buying an e-bike to cruise around town with. If you like watching movies/TV shows and cuddling that would be great too. I would like to find someone to take me out of my bubble occasionally as I tend to be a very stagnate person. Someone who is more of a submissive type in the bedroom. I'm open to long distance but must be willing to travel eventually.
Physically, I naturally gravitate towards petite women(and men who are androgynous). I don't care what you identify(MtF, Male Trap, CIS Woman) as, just as long as we have a genuine attraction towards each other. I'm not attracted to masculinity at all.
About me:
  • Caucasian, 5'11": I am obese and would like to change that with swimming and diet
  • No kids/never married: I don't want any kids in life
  • GAD: I have nervous and anxiety issues but am not really shy per se
  • Introvert: I like my solitude but some times being alone gets to me
  • Open-minded: I like to learn and explore things that are normally outside my comfort-zone
  • Day-to-day type: I try to live in the present as much as I can
  • Homebody: I'd rather stay in and watch Netflix
  • Nocturnal: I naturally gravitate towards night time
  • French: I'm French-Canadian. My extended family is from Quebec/Montreal/Ottawa area but I was born in New Brunswick
  • Agnostic: pretty self explanatory
  • 420 Friendly: I don't smoke anymore but did in high school excessively
  • Video Games: My main hobby. I love playing all types of different games
  • Anime: Have watched quite a few anime in my past. I wouldn't call myself a weeb or anything though
  • Psychological Horror: Like it a lot but much more enjoyable with someone
  • Animal lover: My cat is the love of my life. Helps me deal with my GAD at times and loves affection
If you're thinking of messaging me please...
  • Do not send me a chat message. PM me instead
  • Be available to message for a little bit when messaging. Don't just send me a message and reply 12 hours later
  • Be a gamer and willing to voice chat(eventually). My post is about finding someone I can bond and do activities with
  • Write a little bit about yourself. It doesn't have to be a novel. Don't just say hi and expect me to carry the conversation
  • Don't just reply with one sentence and leave it to me to try and continue the conversation. I'm just going to assume you aren't interested
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2020.09.19 13:44 kexotiic I hate being a darkskin girl.

for background, im a 16F. my mom is asian, black, and white, and my dad is black. in the black community, i guess i would be considered "brownskin", but generally im seen as darkskin in society. and im so over it.
for starters, in society lightskins, especially mixed ones, are seen as more beautiful and feminine. i know that aloe of black girls, full or half, went through a phase where they didnt like themselves / compared them to white girls. but as we got older, it was more known that lightskin girls were more appealing. hollywood started casting them more, especially Netflix. they say black comes in all shades and then have one type of representation. well, i wanna see myself too. i wanna feel beautiful and grow up seeing im what it means to be a beautiful black woman like Zendaya too!
then boys. dont even get me started on the boys in the black community. i cant count the amount of times ive been told / seen an ignorant comment from a black male talking down on a black girl. comparing me to a roach, constantly calling us roaches, burnt, and "nappy hair texture" i even remember one time this dark skin girl on twitter said "dark skin ladies drop a pic, let's start a darkskin girl appreciation thread💕", and some black boy quote tweeted it and said "all i see is weave.", i click on his account and all it is is praising lightskin girls why completely dragging darkskin girls through the mud. and you wanna know the worst part about it? black boys, it seems like they win. when you see a half black half white person, 9/10, they have a black dad and white mom. when you see a blasian person, its usually a black dad with an Asian mom. its like, they get to talk to us like dirt, be colorist, and they win.
also i just want to say, that im not one of those girls that say shit like "i actually think some darkskins are pretty" no. i think darkskins are beautiful. and thats a backhanded compliment. but some are just confident than others, a lot feel the same way i do.
i also want to say that i am bisexual, and i have never had a type. regardless of your sexuality, race, ethnicity, if you're cute and you have a nice personality, i like you. but recently i've honestly been debating on if i want to have my future kids with a white partner just so that if i have a kid, they're not going to have to go through the same things as me. and i absolutely know that even if you are half black, you can still experience racism, but at least she can grow up knowing that shes some sort of beauty standard. i know its hypocritical of me because i've caught out people for fetishsizing, but i feel so disgusted with myself, my skin, my big nose, my hair texture, on top of that im not the most attractive girl. i hate myself and my skin so much. i wouldnt wish how im feeling on anyone.
im not asking for sympathy or anything, but its gotten to the point where i just hate everything about myself. I so badly wish I was lightskin mixed or Mexican. Asian, white, something besides what i am. im so over everything.
also: i just want to add, i know that the word "preference" has been controversial. in my opinion, i believe that everybody can be attracted to who they want. i feel like its the same thing as sexuality, where you're just attracted to someone you cant help it. however, i dont like when people who look like me are constantly being dragged in the process of who you're uplifting. i also know i'll seem sensitive for this, but it gets hurtful realizing you're barely preferred.
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2020.09.19 06:51 clurrys Positive Abortion Experience (Long)

I realize this is very long. This is mostly a vent, just me sharing my experience. Please don't feel obligated to read it. I have sectioned it a bit to make it easier to parse. I also want to say 'thank you' to this community. When I was was deciding to get an abortion but was scared, I came to this sub and found the support and advice that I needed, and I am incredibly appreciative.
I had an abortion August 1st. About a month and a half ago now. When I found out I was pregnant, and over the next few days while I was unsure what to do before eventually deciding to get an abortion, the sheer terror, and panic, and just feeling like I was losing my mind was unparalleled to anything I’ve ever felt.
[Reasons for terminating] I have never wanted to have kids. I do want to raise kids, I’d just rather adopt after they are old enough to use the toilet and communicate to me with at least some words. I have always had a fear of pregnancy and childbirth. It sounds hellish to me. The vomiting and the tiredness and the heaviness and in the later months, hardly being able to walk? And the pain of labor and birth? Scares me. I was only pregnant for about 5 and a half weeks, and in that time my fears were only furthered when I realized how deeply pregnancy affects your MENTAL state too, not just physical. On top of my many pre-existing mental health problems, being pregnant made me feel like I was losing my mind. I was a completely different person, in only the first month. I could hardly get out of bed for more than ten minutes, lost all of my appetite (seriously I was only eating half a meal a day), was crying randomly, and a lot of the time I was semi zoned out, and felt dissociated. I thought I was just going through a particularly bad depressive episode, but when I found I was pregnant... I had a line of thought. I knew this was putting me in an extreme mental state, one where I could not recognize myself, and it felt like I was under some spell. I knew... that if I continued being someone who was not me, and was not well, there was a real threat that I could feel compelled to hurt myself or worse. Especially if this affect became worse as the pregnancy progressed. I was able to recognize I was in the early steps of becoming a danger to myself. I did not want a baby to begin with, but that didn’t feel like enough justification... but for these reasons, there was a genuine need to terminate.
(On a side note, the thing I was most angry about was finding that, while complete loss of appetite is a form of morning sickness, my body still prioritized the fetus, so what little nutrients I did manage to get into me, went all to the damn thing while I LITERALLY STARVED AROUND IT.)
[Hesitations] I was scared. I was a little scared of the pain that would come with abortion, but mostly I was scared of the shame. I thought I would feel like a murderer, that I would be racked with guilt for the rest of my life, like I would live endlessly in that scene in Macbeth of trying to wash blood off my hands. I was plagued with visions of burning in hell forever, which is funny, because I’m don’t believe in hell, but that’s how much our culture pushes the narrative of abortion as evil. My catholic friend actually comforted me by assuring the bible never really concretely condemned abortion, and that most Abrahamic religions even specifically allowed abortions when the fetus posed a danger to the woman (which she further assured that feeling like I’m losing my mind and suicidal thoughts were definitely a danger). This was my biggest hesitation. In retrospect, the extreme lengths this fear went was no doubt fueled by my deteriorating mental state at the time. I also lost a friend I have known since high school. She was always an extreme (not terf) radical feminist, yet when I came to her for support, she shamed me. She told me my reasons weren’t valid, said I was being selfish, said I was killing a human, implied I was incapable of loving any potential child. When I said I didn’t feel right, morally, creating a life and bringing it into a world that I have had such a painful time in and often struggled to want to stay in (depression, yknow) she went on a spiel about “not focusing on that and instead focusing on [an entire long ass list of milestones and memories the average parent creates with their child that I will not list because it was triggering to me then and could be triggering to any of you]” and that was just...? That was the most disgusting, manipulative, guilt trippy, so so so namipulative thing anyone could have said to me? I was shocked. I could not believe it. I blocked her and lost a friendship. I do not regret my decision in cutting contact with her but it still wounds me so deeply that my close friend of many years would DO that.
[Abortion experience] I thought a lot about it, even got help from other people on this sub, and made up my mind to go through with it. I chose a medical abortion so I could be comfortable and cared for and surrounded by love. I actually chose to have it at my family’s house, instead of my own, because my family is really cool and I’m really lucky and I felt extremely taken care of there. My boyfriend bought me ice cream, my mom gave me a heating pad, and my brother always brought me food and water whenever I asked. (I even bought adult diapers because I figured I was going to hurt too much to get up and change pads too often and, well, diapers are more absorbent. I was very correct btw, I would definitely recommend diapers for this.) My 4 year old sisters were there too, which I thought would make me feel bad, but it actually sort of made me feel better? I don’t really know why, maybe I felt like I was still capable of loving certain children while feeling valid in finding them to be a handful and not wanting my own. Anyway, I took the first pill on the 1st, and the next four pills on the 2nd. I put them in my cheeks for about half an hour and then swallowed the rest, though I’m not sure how much they even dissolved since my mouth was so dry with not being able to keep anything down, including water. I threw up about 40 minutes later, which I looked up and saw is bad and you should call your clinic if you throw up in under 60 minutes after you swallow them but... the pain had already kicked in and I really just decided I couldn’t deal with that at the moment. Irresponsible but nothing bad ended up happening. I took Hydrocodone (before the pills actually) and laid down with my boyfriend with a heating pad and Netflix. After about 20 minutes the pain kicked in. It was... like getting kicked in the stomach. It was really bad. I’ve had ovarian cysts burst and this was like that but about 2 or 3 times worse. I was genuinely writhing and moaning. But even through all that I never regretted my decision. In a way, it felt natural. Like that was simply my body doing what needed to be done to get the bad stuff out, however much strain was necessary to do it, which I guess was very literally what was happening. I went to the bathroom two or three times and passed most of the clotting pretty quickly. I think I was only in pain like that for about half an hour before I just lost consciousness. I blacked out and slept through the worst of it, and woke up two hours later. It still hurt after this, but not consistently, and not as bad. It was like a really bad cramp, every ten minutes or so. Mostly I just felt a swarm of endorphins at this point, and relief that the worst was over. My bf continued to be right by my side with Netflix and later that night I was so happy to find my appetite returned that I actually cried. The next day I was so hungry, I think I ate my weight in food, and every bite made me so happy. The pain lasted for about two days after, gradually decreasing, and the bleeding and weak feeling lasted about a week. The pain was pretty bad, but it was bearable because I was confident in my decision, and I was lucky to have the environment and support that I did.
[Aftermath] The best part about all of this is that I am so happy to say, the biggest fear I had, that I would feel guilty and dirty and like a murderer, I have never once felt it. During the abortion process, it never felt like murder, it never felt like a human inside of me. It was definitely, from beginning to end, something that had invaded my body, without my permission, stole my food and made me starve, and made me sick, and made me go crazy so quickly. I do not say this lightly, but it felt like removing a malignant growth. It WAS hurting me. The entire experience has normalized abortion so much to me personally that it is easy to forget I even had one, because the narrative surrounding abortion in conservative circles is so not true to my experience that it almost doesn’t even sound like they’re talking about the same thing. When I regained my appetite, and my sanity, I knew I did the right thing, and I have never felt guilt about it. I think an important thing is keeping yourself surrounded by positive and supportive people. I do not feel ashamed, but I do not want to invite unnecessary hate, so I have chosen not to publicly announce that I ever was pregnant or that I had an abortion, and have only told a handful of people. I went to my gynecologist about four weeks ago, who told me that everything looks good, my hcg levels are dropping consistently, and all the tissue is out of my uterus. I am now on birth control as well. The pregnancy was a nightmare. I am glad I chose not to go through with it. I planned on eventually writing and posting about my experience on here, and felt compelled to today after seeing a post on facebook, talking about abortion, with all the comments being the typical conservative comments you see on those kinds of posts. That societal reaction and view of me was very scary to me. I wasn’t scared of being looked down on, but of internalizing that vitriol, and driving myself mad with it. I was scared that I would come to believe it, because even when you know it isn’t true, it’s sheer prevalence in our culture can wear you down and worm into you. But even though seeing those comments today stung a bit, having gone through the experience of an abortion actually made it EASIER for me to disregard them than before. Because now I know with first hand experience that they are not true. I am none of the things pro-lifers say I am.not a murderer. I am a human. A girl. I like baking, and watching anime, and drawing and doing puzzles and reading books. I am scary smart on some niche subjects and yet I still get very anxious when I drive on anything but back roads. I have friends who I love, and a job and a boy I will marry once all this corona stuff is passed. I do not have blood on my hands. I love children, but I also love myself, and I know that I need to take care of myself first. I am a normal, sometimes bubbly, sometimes depressed, very much not evil, pretty average human woman, and I had an abortion. Because the pregnancy was causing me suffering, yes, but also just because I did not want to have a baby. I did not go mad with grief or become a villain. My life went back to normal. I know my experiences are not universal, (and I know this is EXTREMELY LONG at this point so if you’re reading this I commend you,) but if you are scared out of your wits like I was, and fear being consumed by guilt, it’s ok. A lot more people get abortions than you think. You don’t change after it. Not if you don’t want to. You are still a normal person after an abortion. Abortion is normal.
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2020.09.19 02:48 throwraroddysguy883 I'm a guy who's fallen for my woman who's married

I posted this on the relationship advice sub.
I split up with my ex of nearly 10 years last February and was single for a good 6 months ago when I met someone who was looking for a purely sexual relationship. Basically, she'd been married a 12 years with an 11 year old and her husband admitted he was asexual and extremely touch repellent - even hugging was a chore. They hadn't touched each other in 4 years and had an agreement that she could have a "sex surrogate". I thought fuck it, I haven't been with anyone in 6 months or so and didn't want a relationship so this was good for me. I don't know the definition of it, but her husband agreed she can have a guy who she can meet up with and have her sexual needs fulfilled and they can stay in a platonic relationship. But only the one, no one night stands or shit.
So we met up, and god, it's been great. We had such good sexual chemistry, we really get each other. At the start, it was all hotels but after a while it was all Netflix and chill and hanging at my house.
When lockdown hit, it was all online so sexting and stuff and video messages but in my opinion, it's where we started really getting to know each other. And I really started liking her. I felt a bond and I thought she did too. I've told her things I wouldn't even tell my ex.
So when we could meet up again in July, we did and I felt it was even more special. We've even been on what I would consider dates. I feel a connection - I feel like I love her. - I can't stop thinking about her. But lately, she's had a few family issues and cancelled. We've always had Friday nights and Saturday as our days and maybe a Tuesday. But the past few weeks, she's been busy so has had to reschedule because of family issues. I've been on hold because of her, so I've had to cram in our days to suit her and I feel it's been strained.
So I'm not sure what to do here. I am falling in love with her - in fact, I'm thinking about her almost 24/7 at this rate. I would like to tell her I would like to be in an exclusive relationship, and I think she could leave her husband for me. It's not like I don't have options - someone at work likes me and all I'd have to do is ask her out. It's not like she's not attractive - she's pretty, albeit not my usual type, and we get on etc. But we don't have that chemistry me and the woman have.
Should I tell her? Or should I break it off and start living my life?
Edited to add I now realise it's not a good idea at all to tell her to leave her husband - that's not fair. But I do think I should tell her how I feel at least.
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2020.09.19 01:30 throwraroddysguy883 I (37m) in a relationship with a woman (38F) who's in a non-monogamous marriage and I'm in love but she doesn't feel the same way. How do I proceed?

Long time lurker, first time poster.
I split up with my ex of nearly 10 years last February and was single for a good 6 months ago when I met someone who was looking for a purely sexual relationship. Basically, she'd been married a 12 years with an 11 year old and her husband admitted he was asexual and extremely touch repellent - even hugging was a chore. They hadn't touched each other in 4 years and had an agreement that she could have a "sex surrogate". I thought fuck it, I haven't been with anyone in 6 months or so and didn't want a relationship so this was good for me. I don't know the definition of it, but her husband agreed she can have a guy who she can meet up with and have her sexual needs fulfilled and they can stay in a platonic relationship. But only the one, no one night stands or shit.
So we met up, and god, it's been great. We had such good sexual chemistry, we really get each other. At the start, it was all hotels but after a while it was all Netflix and chill and hanging at my house.
When lockdown hit, it was all online so sexting and stuff and video messages but in my opinion, it's where we started really getting to know each other. And I really started liking her. I felt a bond and I thought she did too. I've told her things I wouldn't even tell my ex.
So when we could meet up again in July, we did and I felt it was even more special. We've even been on what I would consider dates. I feel a connection - I feel like I love her. - I can't stop thinking about her. But lately, she's had a few family issues and cancelled. We've always had Friday nights and Saturday as our days and maybe a Tuesday. But the past few weeks, she's been busy so has had to reschedule because of family issues. I've been on hold because of her, so I've had to cram in our days to suit her and I feel it's been strained.
So I'm not sure what to do here. I am falling in love with her - in fact, I'm thinking about her almost 24/7 at this rate. I would like to tell her I would like to be in an exclusive relationship, and I think she could leave her husband for me. It's not like I don't have options - someone at work likes me and all I'd have to do is ask her out. It's not like she's not attractive - she's pretty, albeit not my usual type, and we get on etc. But we don't have that chemistry me and the woman have.
Should I tell her? Or should I break it off and start living my life?
Tldr: in a sexual relationship with a married woman and I'm falling in love with her and I don't know whether to tell her or move on.
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2020.09.18 20:11 Ceeoli 40 [F4R] Brazil/Europe or rest of the world: Let’s meet, greet and the rest will be a beautiful surprise!

Hello you, ladies and gentlemen, and thank you for stopping by. :) I am absolutely new to this thing of putting my face here on Reddit, especially not knowing if it’ll be a hit or miss, so good luck to me and to whoever decides to take the plunge too (and please bear with me because this post is long).
I will cut right to the chase and state that first impressions do matter a lot imho and a good, polite, thoughtful and well-written PM with some nice pictures of yourself attached goes a helluva way. Anything less than that won’t be entertained, I’m afraid (also please note that all my pictures are very recent and the only thing that changed is my hair just 2.5 inches shorter since yesterday). Please, really, do not expect a reply if you do not show your face and how you physically are overall in your initial PM (dick pics are a hard pass). This is the least that can be done as I am also going the same way.
This is me btw and my basic stats are: 5’7, 58kgs, single, no children and no current pets (I love all animals, although I have a softer spot for cats and well-behaved dogs), catholic born and spiritual, non smoker, alcoholic drinks are a rare thing at the moment and mostly in social occasions and, in terms of diet, I am pretty much omnivore and into healthy/super foods a lot without being hardcore about it (occasionally, on a cheat day, I treat myself with a nice comfort food, a good takeaway or a visit to a cool restaurant).
At the moment, due to the pandemic still going on, I am spending some beautiful family time in South America, but said time is getting a bit more than boring by now and in a few weeks from now I’m heading to Europe for some short studies whilst I’m still on standby from my work (oh hello, Rona!) due to the nature of my field. I’m up for some LDR if the right person shows up, but obviously a face to face meeting soon will be absolutely thrilling as I miss a meaningful social interaction. In short, if you are either around the southeast corner of Brazil atm or will be in Europe from November onwards, I’ll love to hear from you even more!
In the meantime I’m treating myself with plenty of workouts 4 to 5 days a week (weightlifting is my go-to exercise at the moment, with some light cardio), a bit of meditation (still I have a long way in the mindfulness field), some Tarot readings here and there (if you fancy an amateurish one, just hit me up as I love practicing it), a few books (currently reading Eckhart Tolle’s “The Power Of Now”), lots of music (classic and hard rock, as well as 70’s and 80’s music are definitely my thing, but I’m quite eclectic with other genres as well) and some dance moves on my own not to get too rusty when we both decide to hit the dance floor together once all things pandemic finally cool down for good.
I prefer starting building up here with a few PM’s and, once we both feel safe and comfortable with each other, move to some videocalls, chats and more selfies and pics from our days (Discord maybe?) and, finally, a face to face if we’re both lucky. With all that said, needless to say that catfishes would definitely be caught in no time (please don’t even try... life is too short to be wasted with that) and that lots of back and forth messages with no intention of meeting in person sooner than later aren’t my cuppa.
What and who I’m running away from: please refrain from getting in touch in case you are...
1- Someone in any sort of committed relationship (anything ranging from flings to “separated-and-still-not-divorced” scenarios are a big no-no to me);
2- Looking for hookups / NSA (not the agency but the situationships) / open or poly relationships;
3- Someone who still didn’t get over your ex(es), who’s socially awkward, anxious/depressed, or with any other significant mental condition(s) (nothing against any of those but I do have my shite together and I’m mostly an extrovert type... Anything too different than that would be an issue later on for both of us);
4- arrogant or sarcastic (confidence is great but cockiness is a massive turnoff to me);
5- Couch potatoes (I love some lazy Sunday mornings here and there but prefer spending time being active somehow, plus I rarely watch TV and Netflix is for some movies only);
6- Too nerdy/quirky types (again, nothing against it at all... It’s just different preferences). How much is “too nerdy” you may ask? Send me a PM and we shall see;
7- Did I mention about dick pics before? If you feel the need to flash your willy around, then move along as it completely turns me off (Sorry, but not my thing at all).
I’m bisexual so I’m more than happy to meet you, a beautiful woman or a handsome man (also I’m happy to meet trans men or women, as long as you’re upfront about it), between 30 to 55 y/o (unless you’re Colin Firth or someone who really doesn’t look like an average 60... Then please, by all means hit me up LOL) and also:
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2020.09.18 09:25 Ceeoli 40 [F4R] Brazil/Europe or rest of the world

Hello you, ladies and gentlemen, and thank you for stopping by. :) I am absolutely new to this thing of putting my face here on Reddit, especially not knowing if it’ll be a hit or miss, so good luck to me and to whoever decides to take the plunge too (and please bear with me because this post is long).
I will cut right to the chase and state that first impressions do matter a lot imho and a good, polite, thoughtful and well-written PM with some nice pictures of yourself attached goes a helluva way. Anything less than that won’t be entertained, I’m afraid (also please note that all my pictures are very recent and the only thing that changed is my hair just 2.5 inches shorter since yesterday). Please, really, do not expect a reply if you do not show your face and how you physically are overall in your initial PM (dick pics are a hard pass). This is the least that can be done as I am also going the same way.
This is me btw and my basic stats are: 5’7, 58kgs, single, no children and no current pets (I love all animals, although I have a softer spot for cats and well-behaved dogs), catholic born and spiritual, non smoker, alcoholic drinks are a rare thing at the moment and mostly in social occasions and, in terms of diet, I am pretty much omnivore and into healthy/super foods a lot without being hardcore about it (occasionally, on a cheat day, I treat myself with a nice comfort food, a good takeaway or a visit to a cool restaurant).
At the moment, due to the pandemic still going on, I am spending some beautiful family time in South America, but said time is getting a bit more than boring by now and in a few weeks from now I’m heading to Europe for some short studies whilst I’m still on standby from my work (oh hello, Rona!) due to the nature of my field. I’m up for some LDR if the right person shows up, but obviously a face to face meeting soon will be absolutely thrilling as I miss a meaningful social interaction. In short, if you are either around the southeast corner of Brazil atm or will be in Europe from November onwards, I’ll love to hear from you even more!
In the meantime I’m treating myself with plenty of workouts 4 to 5 days a week (weightlifting is my go-to exercise at the moment, with some light cardio), a bit of meditation (still I have a long way in the mindfulness field), some Tarot readings here and there (if you fancy an amateurish one, just hit me up as I love practicing it), a few books (currently reading Eckhart Tolle’s “The Power Of Now”), lots of music (classic and hard rock, as well as 70’s and 80’s music are definitely my thing, but I’m quite eclectic with other genres as well) and some dance moves on my own not to get too rusty when we both decide to hit the dance floor together once all things pandemic finally cool down for good.
I prefer starting building up here with a few PM’s and, once we both feel safe and comfortable with each other, move to some videocalls, chats and more selfies and pics from our days (Discord maybe?) and, finally, a face to face if we’re both lucky. With all that said, needless to say that catfishes would definitely be caught in no time (please don’t even try... life is too short to be wasted with that) and that lots of back and forth messages with no intention of meeting in person sooner than later aren’t my cuppa.
What and who I’m running away from: please refrain from getting in touch in case you are...
1- Someone in any sort of committed relationship (anything ranging from flings to “separated-and-still-not-divorced” scenarios are a big no-no to me);
2- Looking for hookups / NSA (not the agency but the situationships) / open or poly relationships;
3- Someone who still didn’t get over your ex(es), who’s socially awkward, anxious/depressed, or with any other significant mental condition(s) (nothing against any of those but I do have my shite together and I’m mostly an extrovert type... Anything too different than that would be an issue later on for both of us);
4- arrogant or sarcastic (confidence is great but cockiness is a massive turnoff to me);
5- Couch potatoes (I love some lazy Sunday mornings here and there but prefer spending time being active somehow, plus I rarely watch TV and Netflix is for some movies only);
6- Too nerdy/quirky types (again, nothing against it at all... It’s just different preferences). How much is “too nerdy” you may ask? Send me a PM and we shall see;
7- Did I mention about dick pics before? If you feel the need to flash your willy around, then move along as it completely turns me off (Sorry, but not my thing at all).
I’m bisexual so I’m more than happy to meet you, a beautiful woman or a handsome man (also I’m happy to meet trans men or women, as long as you’re upfront about it), between 30 to 55 y/o (unless you’re Colin Firth or someone who really doesn’t look like an average 60... Then please, by all means hit me up LOL) and also:
Edit: Thank you so much for the awards... Such a cool surprise! You guys and gals rock!!
Edit 2: Thank you very much for your very pleasant messages so far and please bear with me until I can properly sit down for a thoughtful reply over this weekend to the ones taking their precious time to write and send real pictures. It definitely means a lot and it’s absolutely appreciated.
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2020.09.17 21:44 Insendius My thoughts on the books having just finished them (spoilers for all books/games)

Here are my thoughts on the books having just finished them (short stories and novels) for anyone willing to read them. I usually like gathering my thoughts written down like this when I finish a book series so I figured I’d post them here. For how massive the following of the games and show are I’m surprised the book community online seems pretty small. Compared to say, ASOIAF which is also a book community that is mostly popular due to an adaptation. I suppose this is due to the books being in Polish but the translations at least in English seemed great to me. Maybe gamers just don’t like reading. Anyways I digress. For those curious, my path through all the various books/shows/games looks like this: played Witcher 2 shortly before Witcher 3 came out, played Witcher 3 shortly after release, played it again a couple years later with all the DLC. (Absolutely loved both games, Witcher 3 is probably my top game of the decade although it does have its flaws). I watched the Netflix show when it came out mostly out of curiosity, thought it showed promise and was fun but was pretty weak overall, and I figured it was probably doing a pretty bad job adapting the source material so I might as well read the books. I finally got around to doing that a month or two ago and just finished.
Overall my thoughts on the books are that they’re great. Definitely flawed, but one of the best fantasy series I’ve read up there with ASOIAF. I like that it’s the same kind of dark realistic fantasy as ASOIAF, with the same great characters and dialogue, but with a more toned down scope and lighter on the worldbuilding, which are both things I’m totally OK with. I preferred the short stories overall (the one with the singer Little Eye and the undersea people was my favorite) but I thought the novels weren’t necessarily a drop in quality, it’s just that I enjoyed that the short stories had more to do with Geralt and witchering which I’m familiar with from the games.
My favorite of the novels was Baptism of Fire. The travels of Geralt and his company through the wartorn countryside were easily my favorite part of the whole series. I would’ve been totally OK with 5 books of Geralt, Milva, Dandelion, Cahir, and Regis just running around the continent having adventures with some Yen and Ciri mixed in. That being said, I thought all of the novels were great. In the last two, Sapkowski definitely starts jumping around in perspective and time a bit too frequently for my taste. I was rarely confused by it, but it gets a little annoying at times. I get why he does it; it allows for some cool story moments and reveals when we get things from multiple perspectives, and he clearly prefers writing in smaller chunks in the first place.
For this reason if I had to pick a least favorite it would be Tower of Swallows, just because so much of it is a flashback. The one time I was consistently confused by perspective jumps was with the telepath character who was on trial. The whole Stefan Skellen conspiracy plot seemed to serve little except providing danger for Ciri, so I’m not sure why we had to spend so much time with it.
A writeup like this wouldn’t be complete without nitpicks and minor criticisms I had while reading. Anyone is free to disagree with these and tell me why I’m wrong:
With criticisms out of the way, here are some of the highlights of the series for me and other miscellaneous observations (not in order):
Finally I’ll give some of my thoughts on how I think CDPR handled their adaptation and how I think the games compare to the books. I’ve only seen the Netflix show once and overall they didn’t show a lot of devotion to the source material so I’m not really sure how much I could say on that.
Geralt in the games is definitely different from Geralt in the books. I think they do well with his morality, his thoughts and opinions and stuff like that, but the personality and mannerisms are different. Geralt in the books gives speeches on philosophy and morality, he’s very talkative, outgoing even. Although he’s less aloof in the books, he’s somehow more cynical. I don’t think I could see Geralt from the books being willing to get involved with some of the stuff he gets involved in in the games. Geralt in the games speaks a lot in short phrases and nods and growls. Book Geralt rarely seems to do this. The one time that I can think of that game Geralt does seem like book Geralt is during the few animated cinematics after big decisions that Geralt voices over. Not only does his tone of voice and speech in these sequences match more to how I imagine him in the books, they also include a lot of the moralizing and musing characteristic of book Geralt.
I know from that it might sound like I think they did a bad job adapting him, I think they actually got admirably close. A lot of the changes I described can probably be attributed to the change in medium, and the important thing is that I can 100% recognize that Geralt in the games is the same character as Geralt in the books, even if he has undergone a few changes. Maybe I should chalk it up to the memory loss.
One other thing I wanted to touch on is how the show and games treat Dandelion/Jaskier and his relationship with Geralt. It’s so so tempting to utilize Dandelion's character as comic relief, and both the show and games fall victim to it. That’s not to say that Dandelion isn’t comic relief sometime in the books, he definitely is, but so are Regis and Zoltan and any other talkative character with a sense of humor. Along the way, I think CDPR and Netflix lose something of Geralt and Dandelion’s relationship. In the books they’re just genuinely good friends who accept each other despite their massive differences. Dandelion rarely annoys Geralt by being around. I sometimes felt this way in the games and show. Part of this is that in the games and show Dandelion is way more talkative than Geralt, but in the books they’re about equal. I find the problem very similar to the case of Ron Weasely in the Harry Potter adaptations. He’s still a good character in the movies, but they make him less serious, more comic relief, and his relationship with the main character and the way he comes across to the viewer suffer. I don’t really blame either CDPR or the show for this. The concept of a genuine loving friendship between a metrosexual womanizing bard and an often-morose mutated monster hunter is so outlandish that maybe it’s impossible to adapt properly. In that case, it speaks to Sapkowski’s skill that he manages to make it work. Geralt and Dandelion’s friendship was probably my favorite part of both the short stories and the novels.
Overall, considering the change in medium, the Witcher games are immensely faithful to the source material and characters. They’re such huge and ambitious games that they also come with huge flaws, both as adaptations and in and of themselves, but they remain very impressive as a whole. They deserve tons of credit for being able to bring a book world and characters to life in the form of a video game better than a lot of producers are able to do when adapting a book to film.
I realize reading this back that in terms of word count there’s probably a bit more criticism than praise, and I don’t want that to give the wrong impression. We’re on the subreddit for these books and this fictional world so I think we can all appreciate why they’re so great and why we like them. Criticism is just more fun to write and sticks in the mind longer.
Anyways, that’s all I’ve got for now. Great books and I’m glad to have read them. Thanks for reading if you made it this far.
One question that I could make a separate post for, but I figured I’d just include it here anyway: I’m gonna play Witcher 3 again, and since I’ve done it twice in English I figured I’d do it in another language this time. I’m torn between German and Polish. German because I’m learning it, and Polish for obvious reasons. Basically I’ll do whichever one has better voice acting (especially for the main characters), so I was wondering if people who have played the games in German and/or Polish had any opinions on this. Thanks.
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2020.09.16 13:17 gradschoolMD I am a 22 year old full-time graduate student making about $17,000/year from my three part-time jobs

EDIT: forgot my location in the title, I’m in upstate NY
If I were to write an R29-style header for this, I would say "Today: a 22 year old graduate student who makes $17,000/year and spends some of her money this week on bagels and laundry". I submitted a Money Diary this past March so I guess this is technically a follow-up, but my life looks very different now so I'd really consider them entirely separate.

Basic Information

Monthly Expenses

Yearly Expenses

Additional R29 questions/education expenses context because this is a grad school diary and I thought it would make sense to answer these!

Monday, September 7

7:45 AM I have an 8 AM nonprofit finance class this morning, but it’s online so I can sleep in super late. I wake up 15 minutes before class time, pour myself a cold brew that I make in my french press, throw on a sweatshirt over my pajamas and brush my hair before heading back to bed with my laptop for class. I’m able to keep my camera off for most of the zoom call, so it’s a relaxing way to start my week.
9:30 AM Another online class! This one requires cameras-on the whole time, so I leave my bed and go chill on my couch so I look slightly more presentable. In-class group work over Zoom is really just not the same- does anyone else hate team breakout rooms? Near the end of the lecture I start getting hungry, but realize I won't have time between the end of this class and the time I have to leave for campus to make food. I order a bagel for pickup at a cafe on the way to campus while the lecture finishes up. $3.08
10:45 AM Time to get ready for my first in-person class of the week. I throw on athletic shorts and a bra under the same pajama t-shirt and sweatshirt I was wearing earlier- yes, I’m a fashion icon. Grab my mask and I’m out the door, I pick up my pre-ordered bagel on the way and eat it while I walk. The class is okay, it's a quant modeling class which is way out of my comfort zone, so I'm glad that I'm able to take it in-person (at least until we inevitably get forced online by NY regulations).
1:15 PM I’m back in my apartment and heat up leftovers from last night’s dinner for lunch (cauliflower rice with roasted chickpeas, sweet potatoes, tofu, and a tahini garlic sauce) while listening to folklore. I think I've settled on august as my favorite song. Email my landlord about fixing a few things in my apartment that I've been trying to get him to sort out for literal weeks.
2:00 PM I have a planning meeting with the professor that I TA for. He’s super busy and bad at communication, so I’ve been handling the brunt of student questions so far. I made the mistake of letting the first-years add me to their class group chat, and they’ve been texting me at all hours. We talk about this and clarify what expectations should be for my TA position- he seems to want me to work 10-15 hours/week even though I was told 5-9 by the admin assistant who hired me. I can probably do 10-15, just not every week. We'll see.
2:30 PM The meeting transitions right into the class- I mostly just chill (camera on, unfortunately) listening to the lecture and taking attendance/marking participation, and nod sporadically when the professor makes reference to me. I won’t have many out-of-class responsibilities until grading starts, since I don’t have to run open office hours. After the class ends I work on organizing the course website and figuring out what the hell the prof is trying to do with the syllabus. Class hours and all prep/grading is billable time for TAs.
4:45 PM Realize that my fridge is pretty much empty except for a few random condiments and the rest of the leftovers that I had for lunch. I head out for a Wegman's run and buy enough for at least a week and a half- I used to go once a week, but with COVID I'm trying to spend less time in crowded grocery stores. I don't feel like cooking so I end up having some of the chana dal snacks and ice cream that I just got for dinner around 6:30. So healthy. $98.67, split out into food & home categories
7:30 PM Another online class! I hate night classes and strongly dislike online classes, so this seems like a recipe for disaster- however it's actually a really interesting course on inequality in education with a professor I think I'll really like, so hopefully it'll be worth it.
9:55 PM Class is over. 2 and a half hours is absolutely brutal for a nonstop Zoom meeting, especially at night and for my fifth class of the day. I shower and change into pajamas and catch the end of the Lightning-Islanders game. My favorite team and all of the teams I ended up bandwagoning are now out of the Stanley Cup Playoffs, so I'm trying to find a new one to root for- the game was high-scoring and fun to watch but I still don't like these teams.
Daily total: $101.75

Tuesday, September 8

9:30 AM I get to sleep in a bit today! I was supposed to have a shift at the COVID center starting at 7:30, but the university keeps changing the hours of the sites (it's a total disaster), so now my shift starts at 10:45. First thing I do when I wake up is send a quick thank-you text to my sister who's going to visit our mom- she broke her foot last week and her boyfriend (they live in the same town in separate houses) is being shitty and not helping her, so my sister is leaving college to go stay with her for a bit. I'm a few hours closer to home, but I have in-person work and class whereas my sister's school is totally online this semester. I have some scrambled eggs with spinach and cheese for breakfast before I leave the house.
10:15 AM I'm out of homemade cold brew and have a bit of time, so I drive to Dunkin to grab a coffee. I reload my rewards card to pay for it, and earn a free drink for my next visit! I'm from Massachusetts and the fact that I actually have to go out of my way to drive to Dunkin in New York makes me a lil sad. $10.00
10:45 AM Time for work- one of the blessings of the COVID job is free parking in high-demand lots (where the yearly parking cost would be about $900) on campus near the test sites, so I drive there straight from Dunkin. Luckily it's not too crazy of a shift, but I end up seated at a station next to this really weird coworker who keeps making wack comments about his personal life that are extremely inappropriate for the workplace. I make note of his name and plan to email my supervisor later, he's making me kind of uncomfortable and he's saying awkward sexual shit around people who are at the site to get tested.
1:00 PM Done with my shift so it's time for class! It's another quant class where I'm wayyy out of my comfort zone, I haven't taken econometrics in three years and it looks like I'll have to re-learn a lot of stuff in order to keep up. The professor seems good though, which will make a big difference since my last econometrics professor was terrible.
3:00 PM I pick up my car and head home, and immediately am bombarded with texts from my TA class- the readings haven't been posted correctly to the class website. Quickly fix that and put out a few other related fires. Trying to run an entirely-online class where lots of the students are participating asynchronously from another continent is a nightmare, I shoot an email to the professor about monitoring asynchronous course participation since we need to come up with a system for that ASAP.
4:00 PM Heat up the last of the leftover veggies and cauliflower rice from a few days ago, and settle in to catch up on miscellaneous work stuff. I draft an email to my supervisor about my coworker and have my mom look it over (with names redacted) since she works in HR. I'm going to wait to send it for at least a day so if he gets written up maybe he won't realize it's me that prompted it. I wash my bedsheets and towels in my building's coin-op washedryer. $3.00
9:00 PM My meal schedule has been way off today, with a super late lunch and dinner. I make this recipe, with a plant-based sausage added for protein. I eat 95% vegetarian and I'm making a conscious effort this year to eat vegetables multiple times a day.
1:15 AM After another few hours of scrolling through TikTok and finishing fixing the disaster of a website for my TA class, I head to bed.
Daily Total: $13.00

Wednesday, September 9

7:00 AM It's too early and I went to bed too late. The 8 AM online class I had on Monday is in-person on Wednesday, and I'm kind of regretting not signing up for the fully online version since it means I have to actually get ready in the morning. I drag myself out of bed and into the shower, and before I head out I order a coffee and a breakfast sandwich to pick up from Starbucks on my walk to campus. $7.34
9:30 AM Second class of the day, online. I'm realizing I don't really like this course and will probably try to find another one to replace it before the drop deadline. I find a quiet-ish courtyard on campus to go on Zoom, since all of the normal study spaces are closed. This is not gonna work once it gets really cold in upstate NY. While listening to the Zoom lecture, I see that my manager at my COVID job has scheduled me for a last-minute shift that conflicts with a class tomorrow- I email her and hope that she sees it in time. This job creates 8-hour shifts in the middle of the day with no easy option for partial hours, and then they wonder why they can't get their student employees on the schedule.
1:00 PM Head home after my third class of the day. I was distracted the whole time, trying to sort through TA and other work stuff (my shift got fixed at the COVID job, thank god) during the lecture, so I'll probably have to skim the slides again later. I chatted with a classmate in my cohort afterwards for a bit, and realize that that's the first time I've talked to someone outside of my family in a non-work capacity in over a week. Yikes. I make lunch (roasted asparagus and goat cheese pasta, are you sensing the "roasted veggie + pasta/rice + cheese" theme that makes up the majority of my meals?) and chill a bit before my TA class starts.
6:00 PM After finishing my TA class and working through some course readings, I make a kale salad with roasted chickpeas, sweet potatoes, goat cheese, and a tahini dressing for dinner. While I'm cooking dinner my dad calls, and I talk to him for about half an hour- we haven't talked for two weeks so I update him on a lot of stuff. My sister also texts and says that our mom gave her a lecture about how she needs to be nicer to the boyfriend- we both agree that we're not quite ready to go back to being pleasant to him yet, and would like to hear his reasoning and perhaps an apology for being so unhelpful that my sister had to drive four hours to do what he should have been doing all along.
10:00 PM I'm not having a great night, feeling quite depressed and socially isolated. I struggled socially as an undergrad and didn't really have any close friends, and now that the majority of my friends/acquaintances from undergrad have left and I haven't made any friends in my short time in pandemic-grad-school, I'm stuck by myself most of the time. It's really difficult to look out my window and see houses full of friends hanging out on their porch on a beautiful night and wishing I could have had that while knowing I never will. I end up going to bed early since I'm just tired and sad.
Daily Total: $7.34

Thursday, September 10

9:00 AM I wake up feeling slightly better than last night, but still feel a bit worn out. My sister texts that my mom now needs to be in a cast for 6 weeks. Hopefully the boyfriend can get his shit together. I make a breakfast sandwich with eggs, cheese, and spinach. I hang around my apartment for a while since work doesn't start until 11:45.
11:30 AM On my way to work, I stop and grab a coffee at a cafe ($4.16) and then go to 7/11 to pick up a notebook for class and a pack of batteries that I need for my string lights ($14.56).
1:15 PM After spending an hour and a half at work, I take my break in order to go to class. I'm supposed to go in-person, but I can't make it across campus fast enough and end up just going to the Zoom session. I am going to need to do some serious studying for this class, stats and econometrics is like another language to me.
2:45 PM Class is over and I'm back to work. There's a nonstop stream of students and staff coming to get tested, I personally go through at least 100 people over the course of three hours. Near the end of my shift, my coworker (the same one I'm reporting, actually) checks his email and finds out that he's been given a $3/hour raise and is now benefits-eligible. I immediately race to my phone, but there's no email. Everyone tries to figure out who qualified for the raise, and we come to the conclusion that student workers didn't get it. I might reach out to my supervisor about that, seems kind of ridiculous given that we do the exact same job. I don't need benefits and probably don't qualify anyways but the raise would be awesome.
7:00 PM I get home from work and eat some of the leftover kale salad, lentil chips and a homemade za'atar goat cheese dip, and an apple with peanut butter. I'm so hungry since I haven't eaten since the egg sandwich at 9 AM.
11:00 PM I re-watch the two econometrics lectures from this week– a huge perk of Zoom class is recorded lectures– and try to take more detailed notes and go through the motions of the coding myself. I still don't really get it, and feel pretty dumb listening to the intelligent questions that my classmates (half of whom are undergrads) are asking. Math in all forms has been a weak point for me since middle school, but I'm trying to power through so I can enter the workforce with at least some quant skills.
Daily Total: $18.72

Friday, September 11

9:00 AM Wake up and scroll through my social media for a bit, and have the rest of the kale salad for breakfast. Not really a traditional breakfast but I don't feel like cooking anything. I have my orientation for my research job this morning, and I think it's going to be a great experience! The two other grad researchers are both students in my program, so it'll be nice to get to know some more people. My official start date is next week, though I'm being paid for training. Once I'm done on that Zoom call, I head to work at the COVID center at 11.
3:00 PM I finally get my lunch break- there's not much open, so I'm limited to the one cafe near my work site. I pick up a bagel and a coffee, and the women who work there give me free coffee add-ons (oat milk and vanilla syrup) since they recognize me after I did their COVID tests in the morning. I love the dining workers on my campus. I have some extra dining dollars from last semester that rolled over due to COVID, so I use the last of those and pay the balance with my debit card. $1.06, remainder was pre-paid from last spring
7:00 PM Finally home- I decide to clean my apartment for a bit before showering, and I'm disgusted by how dirty it got. I'm a huge clean freak and this apartment isn't super well-kept (thank you college town slumlords!) and has a lot of cobwebs/dirty areas, so it causes basically a constant undercurrent of anxiety. I've recently been thinking a lot about my old apartment, which was newly renovated and a 2-bedroom which would have cost me $1,000/month for my share this year. My desire to live alone and be in the area where I thought I could best make a last-ditch effort at meeting people and making friends won out over my love for that apartment, and I'm pretty seriously regretting it at this point given the whole COVID situation. Depending on how the spring semester shakes out, I might try to sublet it and find a different place.
9:00 PM I'm still feeling a bit anxious and unsettled after cleaning, and don't really have the mental fortitude to cook tonight. A $5 coupon from GrubHub arrives in my email inbox like they can read my mind. I order paneer makhani to pick up from the Indian restaurant a block away from my apartment, and try to turn it into a positive thought about the apartment itself- my old place wasn't walking distance from Indian food, this one is. $10.07
11:00 PM My mom sends me a link to a video that she found of my school's 9/11 memorial dedication. We lost 21 alums that day, and a permanent memorial was dedicated a few years ago. I've gone a few times to see it in person and met some of the families through my previous jobs, so I spend some time watching the video. I was just shy of 4 years old on 9/11 so I obviously don't remember much, but going to a school with a large number of students from NYC almost guarantees that everyone knows someone with a personal connection. It always feels a bit solemn around here on the day.
4:00 AM I couldn't sleep. Finally pass out sometime between 3:30 and 4.
Daily Total: $11.13

Saturday, September 12

9:00 AM Drag myself out of bed and make scrambled eggs with cheese, and some cold brew that's been sitting in the french press for several days with the coffee grinds- this is basically liquid cocaine, it's extremely caffeinated but I'll need that today. I leave my apartment around 9:40 and start walking to work.
10:00 AM Today isn't too crazy, which is unexpected given that the site I'm working at is usually one of the more crowded ones. The shift supervisor today is the sweetest woman, she comes around and takes our individual coffee orders and brings them to us at our stations. I take quick breaks whenever I can to run to the corner to slip my mask off and take a drink. I chat to some of the other student workers when we have longer periods of down time, they seem really nice. I might try to work this site more often and get to know them better.
3:00 I drew the short straw once again and got the late lunch break- nothing's open on campus since it's Saturday, so I run back to the cafe near my apartment and order a turkey sandwich. I know I need to start bringing my own lunch, but we have no microwaves and the only fridges we have at the sites are for test tubes and ice packs so that makes it a bit difficult. $9.08
6:00 PM Done at work and headed home- I make a roasted cauliflower pasta that uses the rest of the spinach as well, and save some for tomorrow's dinner.
10:00 PM Lounging around in bed and watching the Vegas-Dallas game. I think I'd rather have one of these teams win the Cup than either of the teams in the ECF.
1:30 AM Fall asleep

Sunday, September 13

9:00 AM Up for another day of work. I make some eggs and cut up an apple with peanut butter.
10:00 AM My job today is as a greeter, so I'm not doing the actual registration and test observation, and am instead in charge of getting people lined up and dealing with the logistics of the site. A lot of the people in the line tell me that they were supposed to have an appointment at another site, but they showed up and it was dark and no one was there to deal with the 75 people waiting in line. We realize there's been a huge staffing miscommunication with our local health system partner, and this happened at three sites. What a clusterfuck. I also committed the cardinal sin of autumn in New York by not appropriately layering- it's suddenly 50 and raining, and I'm freezing my ass off sitting outside in leggings and a t-shirt.
2:30 PM Lunch break- I go to the one place on campus open on Sunday afternoons to grab a salad. $8.70
3:00 PM Still a decent flow of people coming through the site since we're still taking over from the sites that unexpectedly closed. By the end of the day, we've tested over 1,100 people just at this one site. I'm developing a horrible crick in my neck from turning to look and point each person to where they need to go.
6:00 PM Home from work. I heat up the rest of the pasta from last night and try to massage my neck a bit- I can tell it's going to hurt tomorrow, feeling like I'm 82 instead of 22. I prep some cold brew for tomorrow morning.
10:30 PM I'm absolutely exhausted, so I fall asleep around 10:30 for the first time in weeks. Hopefully this means I'll be well-rested for my 8 AM tomorrow.
Daily total: $8.70

Monday, September 14

7:45 AM I wake up feeling somewhat well-rested, but my neck is still really hurting. I grab some of the cold brew from the fridge and go to my online class.
9:15 AM I find a class that I'm interested in to replace the one that I'm thinking of dropping, and start getting ready to go to it to check it out. Just as I'm about to leave, I realize my neck is getting to be absolutely unbearable and I don't think I can make the walk up to campus with my backpack without a lot of pain. I shoot the professor a quick email asking for the Zoom link, and he manages to get back to me before the class starts! I join the online section and like the course, so I plan to make the official switch in my schedule. The class I don't like is taught by my advisor (who I'm hoping to TA for in the spring), so that might be a little awkward when I leave.
11:30 AM I make some pasta with a veggie sausage for lunch and go to class- this is usually an in-person class for me but I stay home and go to the online section today because I'm still in pain.
2:30 PM TA class- I'm required to have my camera on, and after comfortably laying down all day I feel like I'm dying because of the position that I'm being forced to keep my neck in. I periodically turn my camera off to lay down for a minute and scream into my pillow before coming back and pretending that nothing's wrong.
4:30 PM I drive to a laundromat to wash my clothes- I'm out of coins and need to go to the laundromat to get them from the machine, so I do my wash there instead of in my building. While I wait for my wash I call my grandma and catch up for a bit, and when I move my clothes to the dryer I go to Target to return some stuff I bought for my apartment and get painkillers. Have a mini-breakdown in the parking lot of Target because I'm so anxious about my apartment and the cost and how it's not kept-up and how I'm feeling so much regret about the lease. I send a frantic 3-paragraph text to my mom and dad about this and tell them that I want to try to find a subletter and come home. $6.00 for laundry, +$51.69 in refunds from Target (not included in breakdown), $4.07 for Ibuprofen
7:30 PM Dinner (eggs on toast) and online class. I'm really distracted, I hate Zoom class. My mom texts me throughout and I reply for a bit, and kind of unload about feeling super lonely and stressed. My dad calls around 10 after class is over, and we talk for a bit. I'm not sure he really gets where I'm coming from but he does his best to provide support, in an emotionally-stunted-middle-aged-dad kind of way (which is mostly just him talking about how I always "manage to power through" and referencing sunk costs and uncertainty). Honestly, I probably won't sublet the apartment just because I don't know if I'm ready to move all my shit again and because it's a buyer's market for sublets right now, but I really wish I had tried to get out of my lease before it started in August. I always have a lot of anxiety and regrets about large purchases, so this is nothing new. What I probably need instead of a sublet is to go back to therapy.
2:30 AM I'm still up writing a paper, so I answer a text in the group chat for my TA class about the paper- the student who asked apologizes for bothering me so late, she's abroad and didn't realize what time it was in NY. I'm fine with answering if I'm up, but I'm going to have to force myself to not answer until the morning so they don't start expecting that kind of immediate response from me.
Daily Total: $10.07

WEEKLY TOTAL: $179.79

CATEGORY TOTAL
Food and Drink $148.18 total ($53.49 from restaurants/cafes and $94.69 for groceries)
Fun and Entertainment $0
Home and Health $8.05
Clothes and Beauty $0
Transport $0
Other $23.56

Notes

This was a typical week for me- I work a lot, I spend a lot on food, and I don't spend on much else beyond my monthly expenses. Obviously I don't buy $100 of groceries every week, since those last about two weeks- I usually shop on Mondays, restock on fresh veggies at the Wednesday farmer's market the next week, which runs me about $15-20, and then go to Wegmans again on Monday. I'm trying to spend less on coffee since I realize it's ridiculous to buy a $4 drink every morning when I can buy an $8 bag of beans and get 12 cups out of it.
As I get more into my research job, I'll be shifting some hours from the COVID job to that- it pays more and is more beneficial to my career, and I don't have the physical or mental energy to continue at this pace for the COVID job. This pay cycle (Thurs 9/10 to Wed 9/16) I worked 32.8 hours, which will probably be typical as a weekly total for this semester- just with a different breakdown by job (6-10 TA, 15 research, 10-15 COVID). This coming week I'm scheduled right up against the 40-hour limit, with 39.6. And yes, I do bill my time answering questions at 2:30 AM, I just put it on my timecard as a more normal time lol
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2020.09.16 07:46 spookyspacedog I’m Thinking of Ending Things

so i just finished the movies and i loved it. I LOVED IT. don’t carry on unless you enjoy spoilers or have seen it already.
it can be found on netflix, it was released on the 8th.
my friend had suggested the film to me and told me to take notes.. so that’s what i did.
here are my notes and thought process: i think i’ve actually kinda cracked it but i could be wrong. i’m currently watching a youtube video of where he explains the film.
THEYRE VERY VERY SPORADIC.
i’m thinking of ending things notes:
he knows what she is thinking
is he clairvoyant? can he shift moods?
she seems uneasy now
she said “like me” when he referenced a poem about the name Lucy..
he calls her lucy, louisa, lucia
then gets a phone call from a lucy
barn door blew open when wind was blowing against it
i went back and saw that she was wearing orange and yellow ???
fathers bandage started off the right side during dinner, ends up on the left during dinner
mothers hair was shorter, had more of a livelier blonde in it and bangs. after dinner it’s pinned to the side, no bangs, blonde is bleak.
they say they ate dinner but when she was putting away the dinner they hadn’t touched anything
they only show the dog wiggle waggling, never still and never in a wide angle shot.
parents and jake disappear after she looks out the window
something about the windows
she gets a weird call, almost sounds like jake
she’s getting missed calls from lucy, louisa and now yvonne
swing set
jake doesn’t look at his father
his mother is weird, has a stutter
i noticed the girl starts a stutter when she goes into the house
pig dead from maggots - they “ate” ham
mom said something about him being 50 but he like old and young in some scenes
there’s a childhood photo of her on their wall
“he” is in the basement
dogs ashes in his childhood room
lots of pigs
the parents were fighting after dinner but before dessert
jake was calling for them when they got home.
what’s up w the old janitor?
swing set shown in the beginning, one is broken, the handle bar is still up, no snow
she says it feels like she’s known jake for longer ??? maybe has something to do w his fast aging parents
old man in window is saying what the phone call guy said to her during dessert. something about an answer and question?? and fear
now he’s younger. same room.
she was happy ??? when does the mood change??? after they’re in the car ride
car mirror is broken.
old man is sitting in the parents kitchen watching an old tv. is that jake??
he looks at the swing. it’s not snowing. still broken.
he says his mom hasn’t been feeling well and she might be up to cooking but she made a whole feast??
she says jake is hard to figure out. she said the child being father of the man?
they show a house crumbled and abandoned but leave the swing set. it’s not broken now. it’s new.
he didn’t see it.
she says unlikely sequence of events !!!!
what was on his lip ??? it’s white
i’m pretty sure he is the old man janitor. he could pass for 50, he looks older as the drive goes on
she talks about their relationship as if it’s been longer than 8 weeks.
bonedog is the name of her poem.
he talks about the girl singing as if he was there??
the poem she recites talks about old, time, etc. she talks about time, and how there seems to be no stops
the road behind them doesn’t always move
road sign they pass is the same logo on the older mans paper bag in his car. it says tulsey town dairy. it’s always farm fresh and shows pigs and ice cream and last with clown make up and a crown. (went back, it matches)
also the car dash is the same. when older jake turns on the radio, and when younger jake turns on the radio. it looks almost the same. the car is much older. and his hand is older. also different lighting
he says we are mostly programmed
suddenly at the house, same house older man was at
lamb are dead. jake won’t talk about it.
talks about the
her clothes looks different but maybe it’s the hues ???
i thought her coat was red but it looks very pink. even her under sweater looks purple and pink. it might be the hues
i think it may change as his mood does ???
he puts thermos into the cabinet near the door. with other thermoses
she says the house reminds her of the house she grew up in ..but later says she lived in an apartment
he says here they come (down the stairs) but they don’t come???
scratches and tape on basement door .. won’t let her go down there
there’s more stairs on the side ???? not sure if that’s relevant.
when she meets the dad he has grey hair and then he walks past her into the dining room and he has brown hair.
time moves back and forth in the house . suddenly it’s much darker outside.
jake (looking younger) won’t let his mom touch him. and he liked painting as a kid
girls name in movie is yvonne (she gets a call from an yvonne)
SHE THEN MIMICS BEING A WAITRESS!! She looks like yvonne.
dad sings a song from my fair lady..
lots of allusions to musicals
the sitting room looks different
she plays with jimmy but they don’t show him
mom has weird whispering in her ears
the call from yvonne is saying what the older man is saying in the beginning of the film
lucy does a lot of things ??? painting?? writing essays ?? writing poems ? she studies psychology and physics???
their diction is similar
the dad talks about the mom as if she’s already dead.. and he’s talking about her as if she’s “lucy”‘s mom
now she has her sweater on when she looks out the window and then back into the sitting room and she doesn’t have a necklace on now
he calls from the kitchen but says he’s upstairs ????
reading rotten: perfect mouth by eva h.d. — she reads the poem she recited in the car
the dad is much older now (do they age more and more in each scene ??? no bandages)
labels all over the house, i haven’t noticed. i haven’t noticed. the dad said we will notice.
how long has she been in the house for??
dad is vulgar about fucking in jake’s childhood bed
i’m noticing the labels now
jake is the same age.
the mom is brittle and old
he’s feeding his mom ??
maybe they were younger when they first met
it’s ONLY snowing on their car
now she’s downstairs????
mom talks about pin and now he has a pin on his coat
he doesn’t like to be touched
mom says she doesn’t want to live in a warehouse ????
there’s no photos on the wall anymore. she’s going down the stairs on a loop. she doesn’t notice.
out of the loop, there’s photos on the wall again.
jake is downstairs before her
jakes dad says “is that the girl?” he hands her the labeled night gown but there’s green stuff on the it
she wants to leave. she’s a waitress? they met when she was serving him???????
he asked for the santa fe burger. like the movie older jake was watching.
jake is definitely controlling the moods, conversations, and physical realm. he seems like he’s mimicking movies, as she said he watches too many movies..
his mom looks younger now and she’s talking about jakes toys ??
jake is controlling. people need to follow the rules
jake is definitely in charge of everyone in the movie. even lucy...
jake must be a child in this scenario.
the mom gets snippy about the night gown and going down the basement
she goes down, adult jake gets visibly upset. but won’t go down. she looks back up and he’s gone. looks like snow is coming through??
in the washer is the uniform older jake wears as a janitor. letters on the uniform read RMS.
her landscape photos are on the wall in the next room over. the photos are by ralph albert blakelock. ((is that the guy who directed the movie older jake was watching or ??? ))
the dates read —11/1963 and dec 4- jan 6 1961(?)
her phone is empty now, she doesn’t have the photos anymore
jake is calling her as louisa. saying the same thing about questions and answers
paintings are actually by jake
jakes mom is on death bed now. jake is crying. he says it’s getting treacherous
he says what about your dad and he comes out of kitchen and he’s younger ?? younger than the dinner table scene. no bandage.
she doesn’t hug him back. he doesn’t notice the mom dying in the back
now they’re going home
she doesn’t remember jake helping her w the dishes
she doesn’t remember drinking wine or talking with his dad about ????
i think he’s gaslighting her.. he definitely gaslights his parents.
he wants to know what’s he’s thinking but i think he knows ???
he referenced to a lot of movies
a woman under the influence ?? she’s been watching it... how did he know ??? what a coincidence
she kinda seems a little drunk now and she’s talking over him and he doesn’t like it
her voice seems older now. he’s itching his ears a lot?? she has a little accent now??
she even has earrings on???
her coat now looks blue ??
they sing about tulsey town. the clown queen lady
he talks about how kids at his school and how he sees them older
he knows the people who works at the ice cream place. he says people are cold to him. they won’t come if they know it’s him ????
i think he finds better comfort if she does stuff bc he thinks people hate him/are cold and rude ((and they are???))
he hides from the girls the girl is the one from the high schools
they’re fucking with him. they know who he is.
they’re laughing at him. they were laughing at him at the school too
he shifts from side to side
who is the girl ????? w the rash??? i haven’t seen her.
vapid, mean, and pretty..
JAKE HAS THE SAME RASH AS THAT GIRL
she said she’s worried. it’s not varnish. she says not to go forward in time. and she says to stay there. she’s scared??????? she’s scared for her.
dashboard is different from when he turned on the musical song in the beginning of the film
her Brr is melty???? but it’s cold ????
tulsey town must be a childhood fav of his that he finds comfort and safety in.
i think she’s going to die. he says lucy died young. OHHH. i didn’t think her name was lucy at all. i think he saw it from that poem and he went w it.
she’s much older now talking about the pen
she’s younger now??????
he’s having a mental breakdown. he called her ames. short for amy. ??? what’s her name ??
she said that doesn’t seem like her name or her nickname.
he must’ve gaslit her beforehand
she doesn’t know her name
he wants to go to the school
their conversation bounce and flow so well together. he’s controlling everything at this point, definitely think he was controlling the whole time now.
maybe lucy isn’t even real.
personality disorder??
i’m excited to see how this plays out as i think i’ve figured it out or at least i am close to it.
i think the school is a safe zone for his mind to go ?? that’s why he’s working late and why they’re there.
lucy is yelling at jake about wanting to go home. he kissed her cheek
jake sees older jake watching. he storms out.
lucy is talking about how they met. she wasn’t taught how to say no ?? jake wasn’t taught how to say no?? i’ve just remembered how she said she grew up on a farm and then an apartment and then said again she grew up on the farm
i wonder if his mom has the same thing as him ??? bc she had the ringing in her ears and not the dad ?? maybe it’s a personality disorder ?? or a mood changing power of some sort ?? i’m blanking on the technical term but idk.
maybe she was controlling some of the scenes home ?? or maybe again it’s all in jake’s head.
older jake is mopping to her. he walks to her. maher said she can’t describe jake. maybe older jake can make other people see whatever he wants people to see ??
real lucy seems like she’s kinda coming out ?? but i still think jake either made her up in his head ?? or he controls her 24/7
older jake says he sees her. i’m pretty sure that’s his safe YES he just said it’s safe there. that’s his safe zone. aw they’re hugging
awwwwwwwww he gave her his slippers AND SHE yes. i think she knows he’s jake ??? idk.
i think jake’s psyche is about to break or come clean
she’s looking for jake and now they’re dancing and now she’s gone.
are his personalities fighting each other? or his psyche breaking down?
older jake is done for the day. he’s done imagining? he’s walking to his car
he remembers his parents fighting and that’s why they fought in the house. it looks like he’s breaking down ???
the pigs means something ???
he’s giving his speech. now i understand. lucy was saying she was thinking of ending things was actually jake saying he wants to end things. so now he is ending them
crowd must be his multiple personalities
END OF NOTES
i’m sorry they were so sporadic. i was going back and forth.
he definitely either has personality disorder or schizophrenia.
i’m so proud of myself that i was able to put the pieces together. i hope others enjoyed this movie too! i’m watching the youtube explanation video rn and i’m hoping they can answer the questions i couldn’t
what’s with the pigs?
what’s with the scratches on the door?
did the dad know about jake’s disorders? and that’s why he was so mean to lucy and jake? or jake just remembers his dad being a cold man?
(the video didn’t really answer those Qs but he did piece together what i missed.) so lucy wasn’t real at all.
i’d life to see everyone else’s thought process on it??
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2020.09.16 03:00 BluRayja Revisiting: Which movies will go VOD

On June 25th, I posted a thread about which movies I think will go VOD. At the time, only two or three major films had come out to VOD: Trolls 2, Scoob, and King of Staten Island. As it turns out, the Select theaters/Drive Ins approach didn't do well at all. Distributors are completely reliant on that CA/NY money, so I do not see anymore cross platform releases happening, unless they are very small titles (that is, if theaters even decide to stay open with nothing coming out for months).
Let's take a look at how accurate or inaccutate those initial predictions were and what's still up in the air --
Original thread posted here:
https://www.reddit.com/movies/comments/hfyc74/with_theater_cancellations_imminent_what_othe
"Mulan - I think it'll unfortunately find it's way to VOD and then Disney+ by the holidays."
Welp, that's exactly what happened. Released in September and will be on D+ apart of the subscription in December. Ultimately, the movie didn't do as well as they had hoped and was met with a lot of criticism from fans PLUS major controversy world-wide. Ironically, it received praise from critics who saw it for free.
"Tenet - There's no way, Nolan won't allow it. Probably getting pushed to July 2021."
Welp, wisdom did not prevail and instead, was released in September 2020, resulting in very low box office numbers domestically. Thus, pretty much everything else got pushed back, including WB's own movies. While we knew VOD would not happen under any circumstances, you'd think they'd be smart enough to push it to Summer 2021 in the first place -- granted, there was optimism at the beginning of this pandemic, but it seemed Nolan was being pushy for a release this year for... I actually don't know what reason, honestly. The film is currently getting very mixed audience reactions and I don't see it thriving in this current marketplace. It would've done extremely well with theaters in full swing, pulling in $300-400 million domestically in its first 2-3 weekends before dying off based on the mixed word of mouth, but by that point, it wouldn't have mattered as the film would've made back it's budget worldwide. Now the film will struggle to break even. But maybe that was Nolan's plan so he can still get big budget paychecks so he can just always blame his confusing movie's failure on a pandemic.
"Bill & Ted - I think there's a strong chance."
Came out to theaters AND VOD.
"Antebellum - This seems like it could do very well on VOD."
Coming out this week on VOD!
"New Mutants - Apparently there's some theatrical clause forbidding it. It would seem like a wise decision at this point to figure out how to get out of it so it just can be released in some form, because it's already a joke at this point and will be hard to take seriously in August 2021."
The movie finally had it's theatrical release and actually did decent, all things considered. Unlike Tenet, I think it was the right move here to just go for it. If anything, I think current circumstances helped it. In a crowded marketplace, it would've floundered.
"Monster Hunter - Has VOD written all over it."
Haven't heard any updates on this yet other than a new release date for April 2021. It might do well with that date, so we'll see how things are going with the world at that point in time.
"A Quiet Place 2 - My instincts say Paramount is smart enough to know this film is vital in the theatrical experience. However, knowing the company has been suffering lately, it seems POSSIBLE they might just release it to make some guaranteed money."
Unfortunately, latest buzz around this is that Netflix has picked this up. An official international Twitter Netflix account accidentally spilled the beans and took down the post pretty quickly, but it seems like a done deal. I can see them releasing this around Halloween so Mandolorian S2 doesn't get all the buzz. Netflix seems like the desperate plan to get guaranteed money from the company paying for the rights outright instead of relying on VOD. However, I think this movie would do VERY strongly on VOD and they could potentially make even more money. But considering the spot Paramount is in right now financially, maybe they didn't want to take that chance. The last known plan was for a April 2021 release date. But with Fauci's recent claims that it'll be very unsafe to be in theaters even with a vaccine hitting the market by the end of the year, it won't be widely available until late 2021, Paramount might just be calling it a quits for now and getting what they can.
"The Conjuring 3 - I think it'll get pushed back. This franchise is a huge money earner for WB."
Pushed back to June 2021, which is smart. The films have always done well as tentpole summer horror films. The original September date seemed odd anyway.
"The King's Man - I see this being pushed back to January and being set up for possible disappointment of another delay again if theaters STILL aren't reopened. THEN, I think it'll for sure be put on VOD."
Close, it's currently slated for February 2021. With the current state of the world, I can see them releasing it internationally in theaters and domestically on VOD.
Candyman - This one could go either way. Like King's Man, I see them pushing it back one more time to either January or February. It might even do REALLY well in that timeframe if coming out in theaters.
Delayed to an unknown date in 2021. Sadly, Jan or Feb doesn't seem like a likely bet for theaters to do well, so I think they're just saying "indefinitely" for now. Personally, I'd be fine with this being VOD. I'd love to see it on the big screen, but I'm itching for this movie right noooow. This was way up high on my most anticipated for 2020, so the longer I wait, the sadder I get.
Wonder Woman 1984 - I think this will be pushed back to summer 2021. If WB wants to be ballsy and make some quick change, this is a for sure VOD hit though.
WB has it currently moved to Christmas 2020, which is optimistic. I can see pretty much everything on the current slate being moved again with this being the first movie to try opening again and WB wanting to take that risk, making theaters re-open possibly a whole other time and going through the risk and motions once more. Will WB & theater chains be let down once more? Who knows. I predict everyone will be traveling and seeing family anyway, with zero precautions of COVID at that point. I think by the holidays, people will likely try to move on and even theaters could possibly do well. This will likely be the spike event of our second wave. If WB doesn't want the bad press for being apart of that, they'd be smart to move. But as always, money is the root of all evil, and if they can get their quick buck at the cost of hundreds of lives, so be it. My current prediction is this stays and even does well. My hope is they just move to Summer 2021.
The Trial of the Chicago 7 - I see this getting picked up by Netflix or something.
Officially picked up by Netflix, will be out in October!
Halloween Kills - Now we're in the land of things POSSIBLY opening in theaters. If not, I could also see this going either way -- VOD in time for Halloween OR it gets pushed back an entire year, and Halloween Ends gets pushed back also.
Officially pushed back a whole year, sadly, along with Halloween Ends. Would have loved to see it this Halloween, but I understand. If we're still in pandemic at that time, I don't see them going back a whole year one more time and VOD it will be. I truly hope that is NOT the case though.
Snake Eyes - This will probably get pushed to Summer 2021 where it'll inevitably flop anyway.
Paramount thinks maybe they have a chance with this film, so they pushed it a whole year back. Oh Paramount... I'd love to be wrong, but I have zero faith in this franchise.
Black Widow - Just like back in May when people thought theaters would open in time for this, I think this will suffer the same fate. It'll get super close and Marvel will realize it'll make sense to pull it. However, I don't think they'll redo their whole schedule again. As of now, they set up some good spots for their movies accidentally... Thor for Valentine's Day, Black Panther becoming a major summer film, along with Captain Marvel. Black Widow just might be like Mulan and release on VOD with a Disney+ release in time for Christmas.
The current November slate is in talks to move. And, as tragic fate would have it, obviously Marvel will have to rethink their Black Panther 2. This will give them the possibility to restructure their release dates a bit, and Black Widow MAY be able to benefit of still having a theatrical exhibition. However, even with that in mind, I still think they're going to pull the trigger and go with a D+ release. As of now, Mulan did fairly well with Premier Access but nowhere near as well as it could've because of it's controversy. Currently, Black Widow has nothing but good fortune and buzz for it, other than the usual problematic Scarlett Johansson -- but that doesn't seem like a huge factor for this film. What they'll really have to settle on is figuring out how to pair this with Winter Soldier and Falcon TV show which will be on the platform for FREE in pretty much the same time frame. They can easily get away with releasing this in October on Premier Access (if they're smart, they'll drop the price to at least $25 this time). If they wait until November or December, people will have the option of waiting for the TV show to get their Marvel fix. Basically, they're going to have to think quick. But the movie will be a huge success, especially if they drop the price a bit, and Mulan will have just been an experiment gone wrong -- in a lot of ways -- but they'll then know Premier Access is a viable model. Whether that's good or bad news for the film industry, we'll see.
No Time to Die - I think they'll hold out for the theatrical experience as long as possible, even if that means 2022. Bond producers are very much traditionalist and will not give in.
This will be pushed again. It was the very first to be delayed at the beginning of the year and Universal honestly has been very progressive with how they push their titles in response to this pandemic, going boldly instead of the meager "oh two weeks here and there, because that will make a difference." I can see them pushing this back to Summer 2021 or even Winter would not surprise me at this point. They know which titles of theirs will succeed, which is why they pushed Fast 9 a whole year, and Bond is no different. It's a huge movie and they want every theater accessible. Could they easily be successful get away with an international release and domestic VOD release? Sure, but again, the traditionalism by those who run the franchise aren't going to be for that and I don't blame them. In their most desperate of circumstances, maybe that will happen, but Universal is probably still rolling in that Trolls money and can wait things out.
Soul - I have an on odd feeling that Onward did not do very well on VOD or Disney+. I think Disney will do their best to make sure this gets a Summer 2021 release. I don't see them releasing a movie in March again, even if it wasn't entirely their fault.
The current rumors are this will get a D+ release in November. Onward ended up doing fairly well over time on D+, as it was the number 1 movie I saw all over social media of families doing their first "backyard movie nights" or new "home theater set ups to replicate the cinema experience" once it settled in by mid-July that theaters weren't likely to open and if they did, it wouldn't be safe anyway. Whether or not it'll be Premier Access is hard to say. Given how Onward didn't rake in pure hard cash from VOD or Box Office, I could see them trying to recoup with Premier Access. Or I can even see them being scared of that failure and just going the D+ route -- maybe even just raising the subscription price a week before the movie launches just to get that extra money.
Dune - At this point, if things are THAT bad, I doubt anything in December will still be holding onto their release dates. Either way, I can see Dune pushing back an entire year to December 2021. Or they might try to make it in time for the Oscars cut off of March 2021, but if they're thinking money, December again it'll be.
This is WB, so I have no idea what the hell they're thinking, but my guess is they know this can be an Oscar contender and a huge box office champion. The newest trailer is seeing a lot of good buzz and with that, they know they're going to have to slate this just perfectly. If they're smart, they'll wait either to Summer 2021 to get their money or wait a whole year to get the best possible chance of Oscar noms. This may even be that 2021 "Early October" release that's done well for them with box office and noms like Gravity and A Star is Born.
West Side Story - Spielberg will probably push this to March 2021 for Oscars season. It doesn't quite fit in the summer as a big hit and waiting a year seems like quite a long time.
I just realized this is technically a Disney release, so that solidifies some thoughts for me. I definitely think this will get pushed to March 2021 for that new late Oscar season. If things still aren't going well, December 2021 it is. I can't imagine Disney thinks this is a surefire blockbuster hit but knows it'll be critically praised. Their best chance is that Oscar buzz or holiday numbers.
Top Gun - Summer 2021, for sure.
Nothing has changed here. And we likely won't hear any news about this until March 2021 at the earliest. My hope is it stays there and theaters will be open and safe. If not, there's no chance this goes VOD and they'll push back to Winter and then even 2022.
Antlers - VOD or dumped in January.
They didn't go for January, but went for February. We will likely know if that sticks after the Holiday season whether everything fails or succeeds and whether or not the public thinks positively of it yet. With that said, I don't see it getting pushed back again if that were to be the case. If we're still in the thick of it, I can see this hitting VOD in March, or maybe getting an international/cross-platform release if distributors want to try it again in 2021 to see how things will turn out that time (and if theaters are even open at all).
Forever Purge - I can see Universal going for it again with VOD, especially on a mid-range property like this.
They're going for the long haul and want to see this open well to big numbers in theaters, so it's getting its usual summer release in 2021. If they're smart, they'll maybe push it up a week or two so it can get those Fourth of July numbers. If FOR WHATEVER REASON, we are still all stuck at home come July 2021, then it will FOR SURE be on VOD.
Promising Young Woman - VOD.
I haven't heard anything about this film getting a new date, so my best guess is they're looking for a streaming platform to take it in. I think it would do really well on Netflix or Amazon or Hulu. If Universal dumps this on Peacock, it'll fail miserably.
Run Sweetheart Run - VOD.
Amazon has acquired the rights to this. Hopefully we'll see it by Halloween 2020!
In the Heights - Summer 2021 release.
Sticking to that June 2021 release for now. I don't see it going VOD, so if it must be pushed again, it'll probably release during the winter (which would be ironic, since I believe it's set in the summer, if I remember correctly).
There's some other 2020 movies we didn't go over the first time, so let's take a look at a few more:
The Croods 2 -- I can see this doing REALLY well on VOD. Honestly, this wouldn't have done that well theatrically anyway. Croods 1 was a LONG time ago and it has very little brand awareness. Unless they were banking on possible international numbers. Throw it on VOD, Universal, its your best bet, especially if bundled as a double feature with the first one.
2 Hearts - VOD. Starring Kissing Booth's hearthrob, it'll actually do well there. I mean, streaming at least. VOD could flop, so definitely try to get acquired by at least Amazon.
Death on the Nile - I can see this doing very well on VOD or Netflix, but my instincts tell me they'll want to push this for the Holiday 2021 season. However, I think interest for it will be fairly low at this point. They could capitalize greatly if this is released this year while there is very little else out.
Honest Thief - VOD. It would be a smart move. Any other year, it may have the surprise hit factor, but this ain't the time for it. VOD or streaming, I could easily seeing this being number 1 for no good reason other than there's nothing else to watch.
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2020.09.15 21:35 AdmiralRando World without women: a dystopia. But what about the other way around?

Hello ladies,
I just wanted your take on some sci-fi.
I just got done watching a movie called “Only” on Netflix. Essentially, it is about a comet that flies by and somehow casts a woman-killing ash cloud all over the planet. The story follows what appears to be the last woman on earth.
Now, I feel like the direction is kinda flimsy (the last woman on earth is still plucking her eyebrows and growing her fabulous long hair and wearing makeup even while she is trying to pose as a man to hide...) so I wouldn’t recommend it. But it just got me thinking about how being the last woman on earth would be an utter nightmare.
And I thought about what it would be like if you reversed the genders on this. If there were a man-killing ash cloud, the movie would be much less dystopian. Even the last man on earth would likely be having a pretty good time of it.
What do you think a world without men would be like? Do you think it would be very similar to this one for a few generations? Or would the changes be immediate? How do you think society would arrange itself?
I would love to hear your thoughts on what such a “dystopia” would look like!
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2020.09.15 01:30 throwaway72543432 the story of a lonely guy

This is more of a storytime thing rather than just a rant or me complaining about my life etc. Also using a throwaway for reasons that will be apparent as you read.So I am a 35 year old male that has never had a girlfriend and I just wanted to share my story and dating life. I will mention right up here that I do have autism and an anxiety disorder and am 5'2 so you can keep that in mind as you read through this.
When I was a teenager I was just sort of an average kid for the area I lived in and for the time. I spent a lot of time playing video games and going to school that kind of generic stuff. However once I got into my early teens I started trying to get a girlfriend. For some reason ever since I was little I have always wanted to get married and be a husband so that was sort of a top priority for me my whole life rather than making money so I focused on that through my teens. The kind of relationship with a girl I always envisioned for myself was one where me and my wife are absolute best friends that support and help each other in everything we do, the king where even though we are married I still take her out on dates every weekend and do fun stuff with her, Unfortunately all of my friends were guys so girls didnt really take notice of me. I wasnt really super ugly or anything but I am a very average looking guy so it isnt like I stood out that much. I tried joining clubs at school that had a lot of girls in them like the french club or the school christian club. However I have autism as aforementioned and people always seemed to perceive me as different. I joined these mostly girl clubs and despite it being a social gathering I always got butted out of conversations and would spend time alone hoping I could talk to someone while I normally instead got to watch the girls talk to the generic "chad" type of guy. As I got towards the end of my time in highschool like halfway through 11th grade I started getting into anime and manga, normally I would read romantic novels and stuff like that. I even would read books like Twilight since it was sort of like a surrogate for my own desires for a relationship. I decided I would have better luck in university
Fastforward to my college years and I majored in engineering eventually getting my masters. During college all of my old friends from HS and I parted ways and I never really made any new friends during my time at university. As you might guess this made my time even harder trying to meet girls since I dont even have a social circle outside of just being in a class with them. During my first 2 years I had my elective and general ed classes so I met girls fairly regularly and would try to strike up conversations with them during class about whatever the subject was and normally they seemed pretty receptive of me until we would hangout at my dorm where I had my manga and anime collection. Keep in mind this was during the early 00s so anime wasnt as mainstream as it is now. As soon as any girl saw that they basically would stop talking to me altogether unless I approached them during class. Once I stopped having regular interactions with girls in my last 4 years of uni since there were almost no girls in my engineering classes I sort of gave up with the expectation that once I get a job and graduate I would have better luck since I would have money then to help so I just went back to watching romantic movies and reading novels to sort of replace the actual human interaction I craved.
After I graduated i managed to get a pretty good job at a firm making 70k starting off. It wasnt the absolute best I could do but it was in the same town that my parents lived in so I was able to live with my parents rent free while I saved up money. Even better during this time the stock market was taking a hit due to the recession so I decided to start investing almost all of my money into the stock market to start my retirement fund(this is relevant later). Once I was really entrenched in my career and was still not meeting girls I decided to make dating profiles on multiple dating websites. this was around 2011 and I went on a dry spell of 6 years (yes 6 years on multiple dating websites!) without ever getting a match!) During this 6 years I would try to get involved with as many singles groups and other sort of young adult things at my church to try and meet more girls. I would try to get older people to set me up with their kids but they were never interested in me. I would even change churches every year or go to multichurch events in town where multiple churches would get together to do stuff and had no luck there either. Sure enough no luck here either. I eventually made a reddit account in 2013 and as such all my friends are just people I play video games with or talk about anime with online.
after 6 years on dating websites I finally met a girl online near the end of 2017. She wasnt really what I had in mind when I fantasized about being married and getting a wife. She was an animation student in her early 20s while I was in my early 30s. She had sort of that "hipster" or new look. She had pink hair, a nosering and that hairstyle where she has sort of a mohawk/long hair on half of her head and the other half is shaved short. she was also an atheist which is weird since I am a christian. We chatted for about 3 months before meeting. We seemed to hit it off pretty well and she was also really into anime and manga just like me although she preferred gundam and mech anime instead of the romcom stuff I liked. We went on dates twice a week for about 2 months before my parents went out of town and I brought her home to my place. We were watching little witch academia on netflix when she got up to go to the restroom and she apparently went in my room because she saw my trump "MAGA" hat and brought it back into the living room and confronted me about it. It was almost comical how interrogative and angry she was when she approached me about it. She asked me if I had voted for trump in 2016 and when I told yea thats why I got the hat she just lost it and said she could "never be with a man that would vote for such a racist, sexist and woman hating pig like Trump". She left and cut all ties with me that night. You might say I dodged a bullet with her after that outburst but keep in mind I was 32 years old and this is the ONLY bullet that was ever fired my way in my whole life.
almost 3 years later I have yet to get any new matches on my online dating accounts. Still living with my parents and working at the same engineering firm I started out at over 10 years ago. I eventually sort of caved in and decided to go full weeb over the last year. My room used to just have bookshelves filled with anime and manga but now my whole room is full of anime girl posters and plushies and figmas. I even bought 2 dakimakuras (body pillows) and covers for them and even have one that has arms that I can wrap around me when I sleep to sort of be like I am cuddling someone. I even got to the point where since I cant get any dates sometimes when my parents are gone I will sit at the table with one of my dakimakuras across from me and sort of have a dinner date with it to simulate having a wife(sort of like when an old person loses their husband/wife but still carry around a picture of their SO and pretend like they are still there). I havent completely given up hope on finding a wife someday but I do get the occasional burst of emotion when I cry myself to sleep or when I am in public and see a happy couple I get jealous and sad about it.
I guess the only thing I do have sort of going for me is that between my job making 120k a year and me investing in the stock market which now makes me about 50k a year on its own and living with my parents I can retire when I am 45 since am my parents only child and will inherit the property and stuff. So financially I am set and am happy about that. I dont really know what the ultimate purpose of this post was other than to say I am sort of sad and hate my life in every way except for how much money I have which even then isnt a ton just enough that I am sort of comfortable. I always imagined having a wife and kids by now and being able to do family stuff and have my parents have grandkids and all that stuff.
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2020.09.14 23:35 DvDCover [PC] [1993 - 1999] Incomplete shareware or demo of text-based RPG

Platform(s): PC - Windows 95.
Genre: Text based RPG with pictures
Estimated year of release: Somewhere between 1993 and 1998, but thats an estimate
Graphics/art style: Very simple. Text-based RPG with placeholder pictures. No animations where added
Notable characters: N/A
Notable gameplay mechanics: Text-based riddles appears to have been centered around abstract or advanced math.
Other details:
Hoooh boy where do I even begin with this one...Some 90 days ago i made another post about this mystery game, but after going on a figurative inner journey I realize i was completely off-base with my description. I also had some weird flashbacks after watching the documentary High Score on Netflix (Recommended!).
So the game I am looking for is impossible to find. I do not expect anyone to have any clue on what this game is or was. For all I know its the work of one of our hermit neighbors from back then that somehow ended up on our family computer.
What I know about this game is thus:
And this is pretty much it. That is all my overworked brain has managed to spit out when i try to remember this game. A text based RPG with placeholder pictures that was incomplete at the time when i played it. I played it on a Windows 95 computer, and I have. been. wrecking. my .brain for details.
Does anyone have any ideas on what on earth this game was? Any matching suggestions is appreciated!
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2020.09.14 16:59 CannedSmeef 20 [M4F] Florida/Anywhere Looking for that special connection! ❤️

Hello there, nice to meet you, my name is Samuel (though I typically go by Sam)! I’m 20 years old and currently residing in Florida. For a long time now I have wanted a close relationship with a wonderful woman that I can give my love and affection to. I want to be excited to wake up in the morning and read that text message from her that says “Good morning <3”, and I wish to be that guy that she calls hers. Romance has always been important to me. Perhaps you are that special someone I have been searching for 😊
Interests:
Personality:
So what would I like in you?
Ideally, you are between the ages of 18-24. Once we start moving outside of this range I start to get a little uncomfortable. You don’t have to live in the same country as me, but it is preferred that you have a similar timezone to mine (GMT-4) so communication is easier (if I am really that charming, you can still hit me up regardless!).
Wow that was a lot to write out, phew. If you’ve read up to this point, include “Pocket Medic Waifu” in your message to me. It’s not mandatory, it’s just nice to know that you’re willing to listen 😊
I’ll talk to you soon!
P.S. Your picture gets mine!
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2020.09.14 16:59 CannedSmeef 20 [M4F] Florida/Anywhere Looking for that special connection! ❤️

Hello there, nice to meet you, my name is Samuel (though I typically go by Sam)! I’m 20 years old and currently residing in Florida. For a long time now I have wanted a close relationship with a wonderful woman that I can give my love and affection to. I want to be excited to wake up in the morning and read that text message from her that says “Good morning <3”, and I wish to be that guy that she calls hers. Romance has always been important to me. Perhaps you are that special someone I have been searching for 😊
Interests:
Personality:
So what would I like in you?
Ideally, you are between the ages of 18-24. Once we start moving outside of this range I start to get a little uncomfortable. You don’t have to live in the same country as me, but it is preferred that you have a similar timezone to mine (GMT-4) so communication is easier (if I am really that charming, you can still hit me up regardless!).
Wow that was a lot to write out, phew. If you’ve read up to this point, include “Pocket Medic Waifu” in your message to me. It’s not mandatory, it’s just nice to know that you’re willing to listen 😊
I’ll talk to you soon!
P.S. Your picture gets mine!
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2020.09.14 03:48 royerhdz Paranormal experience during quarantine

10/09/20 - 5:49 p.m.
Hi. My name is Roger and I am from Honduras. If you are reading this maybe its too late for me or not, I don't really know how all these things happening to me will end up. Really strange things started happening since four days ago. Oh, wait.. my friends are here. I'll try to keep in touch with you guys by updating what happens here.
11/09/20 - 3:34 p.m.
Sorry guys, I just forget to tell you more about myself so here we go: I am 24 yo and have being living alone around five and a half months for now. I had many family issues since my mom died not long ago at beginning of quarantine and had to left my old home to this new place, which seemed very nice at the beginning, its a little apartment somewhere in a neighbourhood not too far from the city. It has 1 bedroom with a bathroom, a little living room, a little kitchen and a attic that can be accessed with a ladder from the bathroom. Despite the size of the apartment which is not too big (every room is close each other), but its fine for me. I don't really know too much people on the neighbourhood but its fine. I work as a call center agent from home eight hours a day from monday to friday, which is pretty nice because I don't need to be exposing myself out there to covid shit and get paid pretty good. About other things, I do my bills payment online and also grocery shopping since delivery its really cheap here (less than 3 dollars). By now I think I've made myself clear that I don't really hang but when really needed.
The first four months where just fine, my shift at work starts at 7am and finish around 3pm. After that I spent my time doing videocalls with friends, cooking, watching netflix, youtube, reading crazy reddit horror stories, playing video games (Team Fortress 2 for pc or Cod mobile, etc.) just to kill some time since I am alone and my university friends lives a little bit far from here and as I said, I don't really know anybody from the neighbourhood so there's not much I can do.
11/09/20 - 4:12 p.m.
Sorry, Monica and Jason asked me to help them with food for dinner. Ok, let's continue:
One day, I was just finishing work and decided to clean the apartment that was a little bit messy, because.. well, I live alone and never really enjoyed doing household chores but that day I just felt like it. Around 4pm I was finishing my tasks and were about to start watching The 100 series on netflix, when I suddenly started hearing a really strange noise that came from the attic. At first, I didn't really bother to go and check because that meaned that I had to go and look for the ladder and decided to ignore it. As the minutes passed, the strange noise was still there, I could swear it was like some girl's voice talking, but in a tone really hard to understand, so I paused the episode and went for the ladder to check what was going on. With the ladder and a little cheap flashlight I bought before moving from home in my hands, I went to my bedroom in order to get to the bathroom and then get to the attic. When I opened the attic and slowly entered, I saw that there was one mouse. Assuming that it was the origin of the sound and really disgusted because rats and mouses freaks me out, I started trying to pull it out from the apartment. It honestly took me about half and hour trying to do it until it was gone, and when I went back to the attic to bring my stuff and close it, I saw in a little corner a medium-sized, pink dusty book. This was weird because there was nothing at the attic when the person who rents me the place gaved me the tour through it and also just a few minutes ago with the mouse issue. A little intrigued, I picked up the book, went back, closed the attic and went to the living room to take a look at the book. I removed with an old towel the dust that seemed to be there for a while by now. Turns out it was a drawing book for little kids. The first page was signed with a crayon by somebody named "Cassie" in a really crooked letter. I started thinking it was the book of some little girl who lived with her parents here before me or something like that, so I didn't really bothered looking beyond the six pages I checked, which were just random drawings of flowers and stuff. I closed the book and left it on the little table I had in the living room and went to take a shower because the mouse stuff made me sweat as hell.
About an hour later, I went to the living room to continue watching The 100 and noticed the book was wide opened to the middle, but just thought it could be the fan which opened the book and turned the pages. I noticed a very disturbing drawing in that exact page that was showing, it was a drawing of a woman in the floor, covered in apparently blood holding a girl in her arms while there was a man all painted in black in front of them and a little quote in the same crooked letter as in the cover page saying "Daddy did it". By now, I was getting really scared since it was around 6:30 pm and getting dark outside. I turned to the next pages and there were just common drawings, but around the last pages I found a drawing in red crayon of a girl, with a wide open smile, looking directly at me and with a quote saying "Hi". Very freaked out, I jumped and ran outside as faster a I can with the book in my hand and threw it away to the first trashcan I saw on the street, went back home very scared and with a disturbing sensation I just can't explain. I decided I was just going to forget about it and so I did.
Umm.. i gotta go, I'll update later, I promise!
13/09/20 - 5:02 p.m.
I am so sorry, yesterday was a very nice day that I didn't had time to update, so let me tell you why a few days ago I felt worried:
Around three or four weeks passed since the book thing and everything went normal, but a few days ago, before my friends Monica and Jason came to stay with me, I started listening similar noises, the tv suddenly turns on in the middle of the night and I also listen some knocks somewhere outside my bedroom, which really took my inner peace out.
Since Monica and Jason came, it just stopped happening or I don't know if its just the fact that I forgot about it, because we did have a good time, order food, watched movies, series, videocalled other friends, and talked about our boring and depressed life affairs. They finally left today in the morning, which makes me kinda sad.
Just today, while I was doing lunch I was checking our group chat and saw that Monica was doing fun of me because she stoled "something gay" I had in my apartment. I was really curious about it, Jason and the others asked her about it until she sent a picture. My eyes opened wide and my heart dropped when I saw that it was the exact same book I threw away few weeks ago. I called Monica, explained everything to her and then sent a voice note to the group chat telling the guys what happened. They started making fun of it, but just ignored them.
13/09/20 - 11:47 p.m
I just don't know whats going on, the most disturbing thing in days just happened about an hour ago. I've found under my bed the same exact drawing of the girl smiling with a "Hi" written on the paper. Its almost midnight and I am listening the same strange noise really loud and also some knocks on my bedroom door while I am writing this. If there is no more updates from me after this text, it means something happened to me.
13/09/20 - 11:58 p.m
Somebody reading ythis pleasee senmd help, its here! I SAW HER!! She's calling my name and knocking the door right fkin now!!!!
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2020.09.12 19:14 ThatEagle What's cool about each skill tree? A guide

Diplomacy lifestyle
Diplomacy is probably my favorite tree. It's just smoother when everyone likes you, you can name skilled peasants in the council instead of using it to keep your vassals happy, it makes seduction easier, and just generally get people to say YES a lot more, which basically helps with everything and not only in the bedroom. Why diplomacy is amazing :
Martial lifestyle :
Very straight forward. And frankly? A tiny bit boring once you did it a couple of times. This tree doesn't let you do anything clever, nor anything that would last for generations such as generating renown, science, or development. With the exception of grabbing more lands that will be inherited, which is good but a bit one dimensional compared to more flexible lifestyles. There's zero fertility to be had here also, so you might want to get fertility bonuses from your wife. This lifestyle is all about having a bigger stick and painting the map with your... colors faster. It's nice if you're new to the game and want to play it total war style, or if you just need a mental break from those intrigue and diplomatic schemes that can get quite complex sometimes. My favorite perk in this tree is the 40% boost to siegeing, it's just nice to be able to blitz enemy territories and play "catch them all" with their castles. And gold. Still a solid tree all around if all you want to do is war and expand in a straight forward way :
Stewardship lifestyle :
Money money money! If it doesn't make you happy then you don't know how to spend it.
Intrigue lifestyle :
Intrigue is not only assassination. Think of it as secrets, anything that is hidden or supposed to happen(and stay) in the shadows. That includes what happens in the bedrooms. Some cool things :
Learning lifestyle :
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That's all friends. What's your favorite lifestyle and what do you like about it?
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2020.09.12 07:39 _baby_carrot_ TW: pedophilia - So there’s a scandal with a #CancelNetflix campaign to attack a French film. (”Cuties”) about girls’ sexuality due to accusations of it promoting pedophilia. As a CSA survivor, I want to discuss.

Has anyone else been following this?
Here’s a link discussing the story: https://www.vox.com/culture/21431237/cuties-cancel-netflix-controversy-explained
Background: basically, QAnnon and it’s twitter mob set off this storm. All related to pizza gate and other attempts to blame pedo rings like Epstein on Democrats. But also, pedo rings exist and it’s really creepy how the media dismisses these issues because it’s mostly conservatives talking about it. I’m the furthest on the political scale you could be from a Republican. I have been following a lot of this for a long time, even on gossip blinds that outed Weinstein, and I honestly do believe the Clintons and Trump and all of them are involved...... I say throw them all in jail, right. And although I don’t get why the director and this film is involved, I saw a scene and it is absurd that they ever released this film.
Okay so here’s my rant. I’m a huge feminist. Like brown, rad, all the nine yards. I’m all for WAP and against the misogynoir in the backlash against adult women expressing their sexuality. Vaginas forever!! Okay.
The scene that I watched from Cuties on Twitter is one of the most grotesque, triggering things I’ve seen on film. The girls were dancing sexually and the way the camera zoomed in on their bodies was just like. What. And I know it was supposed to be a “wink wink” feminist critique at that very same sexualization. But those scenes should never have been shot. I am thinking of the trauma that those girls have and will experience at seeing their bodies sexualized like that at such a young age. They were not just twerking. Those young girls were emulating sex in front of an audience. I am absolutely horrified that a feminist would put young girls through that for the sake of political commentary. The fact that a woman was behind the camera, and people assuming that she can’t be abusive makes me extremely uncomfortable
They say the director based this on her own experience. Well, I’m pretty sure what she put those actresses through is a million times worse. It’s so public. It’s so traumatic. I just can’t get over the second-hand trauma for those girls.
I just think that the filming of those scenes should be considered childhood sexual abuse. My abuser was an older girl. The storyline just sounds so horrific to me because girls can do horrible things to each other. It sounds so detached from the serious issues of childhood sexual trauma. There seems to be no discussion in the media about the fact that childhood sexual abuse is a serious and common problem between children and children of the same gender. It’s really triggering to see a bunch of feminists get on their mic and totally defend this garbage. Especially all the messed up excuses made for Europeans because “They’re French” or things like that. There was another show about Italian girls in high school getting statutory raped by a bunch of old men in Rome too, and no one said anything. Like wtf. I can’t really watch this film at this point because it’s so triggering. And now I can’t even use Netflix which was a coping mechanism for me.
Hope to hear anyone else’s thoughts on the matter.
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2020.09.12 05:14 NeodymiumMeatPocket 28 [M4F] Looking for Friends with benefits or whatever comes my way

As title says, I am looking for friends with benefits, a date, or even just a friend. Whatever you feel comfortable offering, I am open to.
I am a pretty chill guy, I have my life in order for the most part, I have a sense of humor, and I am very open minded. I am in the average to fit body type range, I am fairly easy on the eyes, and I enjoy a large variety of activities from rock climbing to netflix to video games. I have a nice stock of alcohol that I have no problem sharing, and I am pretty familiar with how to please a woman.
My only requirement is that you are over 21. If you have any questions, feel free to slide into my DMs and ask away. I hope to hear from you!
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